I can't believe I'm saying this.

I can not believe I am saying this.

I want to watch more Panty and Stocking.

...Someone pull me out of this hole. (In other news, I'm off to wait for my teacher.)

Getting ready for work/being in the absolute worst mood ever.

making my outfit for Pirate Day

Eating breakfast and dreading work. I've had three days off and it's been great to just lie around in my comfiest clothes and not talk to anyone but my cat. I don't think I'm ready to pretty myself up and actually have to socialise.

When I got to the station today two policemen were asking the man in the ticket office if he'd seen a boy of about 15 who was wearing a black hoodie, so he let them onto the platform to look. I got on the train and started walking down it (it was one long, continous train) and I passed a boy who kind of looked like the one the police were describing and to confirm this one of them was standing on the platform looking through the window at this boy. The boy casually got up and started walking down the train too, so the police got on the train and suddenly one of them started shouting, "Get down on your knees!" over and over at the boy, who didn't do as they asked. Then the boy leaps out of the door of the train and starts sprinting down the platform towards the end of it. When he got to the end he just jumped off it onto the tracks and ran off down the track. If he'd have touched the live rail he'd have been dead. It was crazy. The police stopped at the end of the platform and wouldn't follow him. I assume they did catch him because my station is at the end of a line and it's a single track until you reach the next station, meaning only one train can travel to or from the station at any time and we moved off about five minutes later.

During all of this this man started talking to me, asking me if I'd seen all of that (hard to miss it!). He spoke to me for 45 minutes until we reached his stop, telling me how he'd made mistakes in his life, how he'd done a lot of bad things and he wasn't proud of himself. Then he started talking about drugs and jail, and how sometimes people get really tempted to do really bad things but most of us don't do them. When he asked me what I did and I told him I was studying to be a lawyer, he asked, "Criminal law?"

Weirdest train journey ever.

Just thinking about how long I've loved my favorite things. I've loved Sims for 8 years, Within Temptation for 8 years, my favorite kid's show for 8 years. Huh, all 8 years. Didn't realize that XD

Then I think about manga and anime, which I've liked for less than a year. Now I can't get enough of it.

On a totally unrelated note, I have $82 saved up over the course of the past week. Man, if I keep working this much I'll have $500 in no time. It's not that hard saving it and not spending it... mostly because we're tight on money. But still, I've never had this much money without plans to spend it.

On another unrelated note, we'll be getting boxes tomorrow so I can sell some of my dolls and a backpack. I'm hoping to get quite a bit for the dolls, as they aren't made anymore and are really rare. Whatever I get, I'm adding to my total for the book shopping trip.

Rambling post, sorry, but I just felt like rambling. I'm gonna go to sleep soon, so goodnight.

Watching Bones. I don't know what it is about this show but it never fails to make me bawl like a baby.

Drawing a heart (as in an anatomically correct heart, not a Valentine's Day heart).

Progress so far:

A friend invited me to a concert tonight, but she's going with her boyfriend (who incidentally I once went on a date with before she and him got together) and I don't want to be the third wheel, especially as I'd have to stay at her place afterwards because it ends so late. I don't know whether to go or not... I don't want it to be awkward.

Trying to decide whether or not I should reinstall my TS3 game.

Hmm...

I woke up sick so I'm lying in bed sniffling and feeling sorry for myself.

Watching the last episode of Shiki.

Those bonus episodes were messed up.

Let's see how freaky the finale is!

EDIT: That ending was stupid.

Me: "I wish I was talented at something."
My mother: "You are talented! You can play the oboe!"
Me: "...I don't play the oboe."

Justin Vernon is so impossibly magnificent that it makes my heart hurt and I think his lyrics are some of the most glorious I've ever come across in my life.

Painting my nails an impossibly black black (which I love because black nail polish rarely shows as totally black on my nails) and getting ready to go do a shoot (my first one in a few months!) and a team-building workshop - because I, apparently, need to learn to play well with others.

I missed my eye doctor appointment, now I feel like crap and all I want to do is lie down and read.

Goodnight.

Sitting in the sun waiting for the hair dye to finish doing its thing and listening to good old Katchafire. Summer would appear when I only have a week left here!

Jesus, it's been so long since I've been on MTS :O

Writing and music. Summer, I love you.

Writing a speech for a leadership workshop... Last day is tomorrow, thankfully (though I've met tons of great people). I don't mind getting up and talking - I like the attention. I just hate having to write out speeches.

Just had a nice dinner of fried eggplant and tomato salad, and now I'm going to curl up and read Nothing by Janne Teller until it gets dark.

Just got home after a day out in Guildford. We have had 32 degrees here! Unbelievable! This is England we're talking about . . . Hottest temperature I have ever felt in my life... So I am just sitting here casually melting

^ Pfft, that's nothing. Try going for a walk in 110/43 degree heat! Then talk to me about melting. XD I'm kidding.

I'm going to attempt to settle in for a day of translating stuff. This should be fun.

Nooooo thank you lol. I don't feel the cold at all so the heat really gets to me.

I just got back from a 6 mile bike ride. Most strenuous exercise I've done in a long time, but extremely enjoyable so I am going to buy myself a bike when I get home.

Just took a look at my meager collection of Japanese pop culture, which officially consists of 6 volumes of anime, 28 volumes of manga and 6 light novels. I should note that 4 of the anime volumes are one series, 15 of the manga volumes are one series, and all the light novels are one series.

That's pathetic, even for someone who's only been at this for 10 months. But when you add in the fact that I'm a 16-year-old with no job and barely any allowance who works for her parents, it's understandable.. right?

Meh, it's annoying to want to buy so many things, but not have enough money to do so.

First world problems FTW, yeah?

OH, did I forget to mention my 45ish Shonen Jump issues? Because, yeah, I won those off eBay.

I just sent off another application form! So I can actually go to sleep now. And I have another form all filled out ready to send off, all I need is another referee to be willing to provide a reference (any takers? ) as for some reason this firm want three references whereas every other firm only want two.

Having an intense SongPop tournament with my mother. I'm winning. .

Watching the lead-up to the Olympics. Can't say I'm overly interested, but I have to watch the opening ceremony and see New Zealand enter. Then I can forget about it again

There was a drive-by shooting in my town. They haven't caught the suspect(s).

Scary shit.

Listening to music and sorting out what movies to watch

Sitting at the bar stools in my aunty & uncle's kitchen drinking a glass of wine .. with my Grandma. This is so weird My cousins meanwhile are in the lounge feeling posh with their glasses of Pimms. What a night this shall be!

Trying desperately to cool off. It's not nearly as hot as it has been this summer, but walking in any kind of heat renders me overheated.

Also, still squeeing over the announcement of Fairy Tail season 2. Best news in a long time.

Waiting for it to be time to get out of this house and go to work. Mum and I started the day off with an argument which has immediately put me in a bad mood so I'm pleased that it'll be a quiet day at work with my favourite colleague there to cheer me up.

Watching re-runs of Sex and the City, always forget how much i love it!

Watching the Olympics. It's men's volleyball: USA vs. Serbia.

baking a chocolate cake with chocolate swirls on top with my girlfriend,oh and it has chocolate cream in the middle

I am packing. I can't believe that I'm heading home again on Wednesday night after being away from home for 8 weeks. This has been the best time of my life.

Writing down numbers in Italian. I'm on 206 and still going. My handwriting gets loads better when I go slow and concentrate on each letter instead of each word.

Can't wait for 444. Quattrocentoquarantaquattro... aw yeah.

Back I go.

Trying to convince myself to get ready for work. After 10 hours there yesterday, another 7 seems like hell to me.

Just learned what Italians do for April Fool's Day.

April fish!

^ The same in French :-)

Trying to check-in online with British Airways but it. won't. work. Grrrr

I've finally gotten tired of being bored when there are tons of things for me to do, so I've made myself a schedule. Each hour is something different, something productive. Even if the public wouldn't think it's productive (like writing down numbers or translating a comic), if it's something I deem productive, it's on there. For instance, right now I'm supposed to be doing homework or Rosetta Stone (yet I'm writing a MTS post.. XD) and from 3 to 4 is practicing my handwriting.

It's not really something I'm going to follow to the second, but rather a guide. If I find myself being bored, I'll look at the schedule for an idea of what to do. I also won't be cooped up in my room all day following my schedule. I'll take breaks, of course, and go outside and whatnot.

Kinda sad I need a schedule to keep me busy, but ah well. Back I go.

I have the day off work and my brother doesn't start back at university for a couple of weeks, so we've decided to use the day to catch up over lunch and then go and see the new Batman. I'm really excited to see it and glad to have an excuse to go with someone else, particularly as he's offered to cover the cost of the tickets. That said, this'll probably mean I'll have to cover lunch .

Wishing I had the energy to do something productive, but I'll just have to settle for playing TS3 instead.I haven't played it in ages.

Waiting for my quiche to finish cooking. I'm going to have a quiet night in with one of the many books I have lying around waiting to be read after dinner, maybe watch some Doctor Who.

Trying to find a desk I like. I've finally given up my dream of an L-desk, simply because there is no suitable spot in my room. The only spots it would fit are either in front of the closet or blocking half the window. I suppose I'll have to go to the office stores and look, because none of the ones I see online are doing it for me. I was thinking one like my sister has, but I don't know what hers is called or where she even got it. Damn.

I could ask my dad if he'd build me a non-L-desk, although I don't think he'd want to... but darn it, I can't find a good one!

trying to figure out what to get my girlfriend for her birthday

So I've done some serious calculating, and by serious I mean several simple multiplication and addition problems, and I've come to the conclusion that if all goes well, by the end of this Christmas season I should have a guaranteed amount of $350. Now why do I say that number specifically? Because:

My allowance of $20 x 5 months till Christmas = $100
3 relatives that usually give me money for Christmas x what they usually give me, $50 = $150
And finally, my parents usually spend about $100 on Christmas gifts for me, so I'm taking that in cash.

And there you have it, $350. That leaves between $150 and $200 for me to earn, depending on whether I really want a Nook or not. I'm about halfway there in either case, with $82 saved from moving work, and there's lots of work that I can do. AND, I'll be selling some rare dolls soon, and I'm sure that'll bring in at least $100.

I'm fairly confident that I have this massive book shopping trip in the bag, money-wise. You can call me overly confident or greedy if you like, but this'll happen according to plan, I know it will. Sorry for rambling.

Sitting at home after 30 hours of travel. Good to be back home in NZ, but I really miss England already.

I just finished a nine hour shift on my feet, so I'm giving them a well earned break. Despite being exhausted, I absolutely loved today. My manager is training me as a visual merchandiser and today I was asked to manage a display of one of our most popular product lines, so being asked to look after such a big thing was quite an honour. After I'd finished, my manager told me I'd done an amazing job and she was pleased that I had learned so quickly, so that was lovely.

It's my first day off in forever so I'm treating it accordingly. It's nearly 5 PM and I've only left the bed once to get dressed and have lunch.

Currently relaxing on this beautiful beach:

Just finished summer school!

Now to celebrate with some loud Vocaloid dubstep and gaming.

EDIT: Well, that didn't happen. Instead, I went to Walmart, the pharmacy and the grocery store. NOW, I'm going to settle in for some celebrating. Hopefully.

I'm so exhausted from work. All I want is to lie in bed and listen to Bob Dylan and read and write for about a month rather than only having one day off before launching back into work. I suppose I'll console myself with a cup of tea and a hot bath.

Shredding stuff for my parents.

I'm not that nice, they're paying me XD

Just realized that it's exactly 2 months until I'm 16. Instead of having a huge-ass party, I'm having a stupid small party. It has been decided.

I just got home from a friend's farewell lunch. She's off to India for three months and I'll be very sad to see her go, though it was lovely catching up with everyone there. Now I think I'm going to cuddle up on the couch with a blanket and my Kindle and read for a few solid hours.

Making a bracelet for my girlfriends birthday which is in 3 days

Took my medicine early so I can go to sleep early so I can get up early and go for a walk with my mom before she goes to work.

Just finished dinner, now I'm going to lay down and read until I get tired. So, at six o'clock, goodnight!

Being inconsolably cranky. I'm having the worst period I've had in a very long time, with crazy mood swings, a perpetually aching back and cramps that won't go away no matter what pill I take, and I asked a colleague to cover my shift tomorrow because I don't think I can handle another day at work and he just texted me back lying saying he's sick, when I know for a fact he's actually not. I've covered so many shifts for him that it's only fair he do the same for me, at least on this one occasion, but he's just refusing and I don't have the balls to call him out on his lies. Why must being a woman suck so very much?

ETA: And after all of that, my other (perpetually lovely) coworker just texted me to say she could take my shift tomorrow, which means I might just survive this week.

Just finished a delicious dinner of enchilada casserole. I want mooore. I might have a little bit more.

After that I'm going to bed, in keeping with my new sleeping schedule. Goodnighty!

I know I'm double posting, but I really need to talk about this somewhere.

So my sister's in the hospital. She was diagnosed with pneumonia yesterday, but this morning she couldn't move her legs, so we called an ambulance and now she's in the ER. I've never been super close to this sister, but now I am really worried about her....

Fark. Feck. Fork. Gaaaahh.

wonderig why my the sims 3 game shut its self down after about an hour of play for the 2nd time in the last two days

I hope she's okay, Cupcake!

Well, she's fine now, or at least better than she was this morning. She can walk again, anyways, and she's out of the hospital.

I'm rewatching Chuggaaconroy's LP of Okami, so I can be ready for his playthrough of Okamiden that starts tomorrow.

Hating my computer and wishing the members of my roleplay would at least tell me if they're dropping out.

Missy Higgins is coming to Canberra in November with Gurrumul accompanying her, and as they're two of my favourite Australian musicians I'd love to go, especially as I wouldn't have to travel anywhere to see them. Unfortunately, starting with this coming week, my hours at work are being cut back so I'm not going to have as much money coming in as I'm used to, and tickets are $75 each, plus I'm going up to Sydney to go to a music festival and to see Coldplay the weekend before the concert here. So, essentially, I am fretting about money and dying to book these tickets even though it'll mean I'll have absolutely no money come November.

Just ordered The World of the Hunger Games, the illustrated movie companion for the Hunger Games, and the movie tie-in edition for under $10 total. I don't know what Amazon is doing with this crazy sale, but whatever it is, they should keep it up!

Seriously, each book was under $4... not complaining!

Now I'm going to bed. Goodnight!

This new-ish guy at work and I were talking on my break earlier. . . And, well, he might just have invited me out for a day at the hot springs next time he goes and I'm not working ...He's really nice, and good lookin' to boot. Am I dreaming??

Reading a Facebook argument between seventh graders. Where's the damn popcorn when you need it?

Fighting the overwhelming urge to get bangs. They're just too darn cute! I'm 98% sure they would look positively awful on me, though, but a girl can dream.

The neighbors have asked me if I'll feed their cat while they're away next week. For some reason this feels like more responsibility than when they ask me to watch their children.

I've decided to spend most of the day (excluding an hour or two to make cinnamon rolls this afternoon) reorganising my room and figuring out nifty ways to store jewelry and scarves and other items which are just taking up so much space on my shelves otherwise. I found a few cute pieces of silver which used to belong to my grandmother but have spent the last six or so months hidden away in cupboards, polished them up, and put my earrings and brooches on them so I can actually see all the jewelry I own rather than rewearing the same pieces time and time again because they're on top of the pile. Next up is fixing up my bookshelf and nightstand, and if I still have time after that, I might make a start on clearing out my closet.

Trying to figure out how to fit as much stuff in my room as possible. Stuff as in bookcases and little storage cubes. My dad's and my plan is to put my bed in the middle of the room, with the headboard at the closet and right next to the door. Then, I won't have to sleep under the window and I'll have two full walls to put bookcases and a desk on. I already have a perfect desk picked out, as well as a really nice bookcase and the cubes I mentioned earlier.

I'm thinking of, being the perfectionist nerd without a life that I am, measuring my room and furniture and making up a diagram of where things will go, to scale.

Yeah. I'm off to do that. Wish me luck!

I am off to wake up my dad so we can go buy the paint for my room. I also need to de-clutter the room which is such a hard task. Blegh.

Booking my train tickets for this weekend! I'm going to stay with a friend from high school who lives two hours away.

playing fallout new vegas :D

Packing for Jamaica with my bf, bestie and bf's fam until the end of August!

Play fighting with my mother after she put money in my bag:

Me: I'm only going to take it out in a minute and hide it in your purse!
Me, after she grabs my leg: Don't touch my thigh! It hurts!
Her: If you take that money out, it'll hurt a lot more!
Her, a minute later: I'll trash your room!

It's cold and snowing (snowing!) and lovely so I've decided to spend my day off baking and drinking tea and listening to glorious music.

Listening to some old-school Linkin Park.

I knew it was more responsibility. When I babysit her children she never texts me to check on them, but with the cat I'm giving twice daily updates via text.

Just bought a doll set with some of the money from my auction. Still can't believe it went for over $200... madness! I'm giving the rest of the money to my parents for now, but they're paying me back in two months. Oh, and my dad bought me a doll today for helping with the garage sale yesterday.

Extremely happy cupcake here Now I just need to find places to perch these dolls... crap.

About to close off my computer so I can move it and the desk to my newly painted room, might show you girls after I tidy it all up. :D

I just had this conversation with my brother about my birthday plans:

Me: Will you go out for brunch with me on my birthday?
Brother: Sure, give me a time and place and I'll be there.
Me: I'll let you know when I have somewhere in mind.
Brother: Sounds good. Also, I have $3 in my bank account.
Me: So it's my shout?
Brother: Yep.
Me: Again?
Brother: Yeah.
Me: On my birthday?
Brother: Is that a problem?

21 and still clueless.

Do you ever find yourself worrying about the things you look up on the internet? God forbid the police ever check out my internet history for some reason. If that ever happens I will look guilty as hell, despite there being a reasonable (yet entirely unbelievable in the event of a crime) explanation for all of it.

^ I feel like that about some anime I watch, like Freezing for example. It has boobs, but it's not like full-blown porn. And I only watch it because I like the concept of the Pandora. It might not be the same thing, but it still worries me sometimes. But on the bright side, I'm a straight girl, so it's not like I'm watching it for boobs, and it's censored.

Yeah, because that'll assure my parents it's not bad... /grumble

I'm going to translate something now. Or watch Freezing XD

Waiting to be picked up. A bunch of friends and I are going to the pub for a few rounds of trivia and I'm really looking forward to it. I'm godawful at trivia but any excuse to get out of the house is fine by me. I haven't had to go out all day and it's driving me nuts.

ETA: I'm really sick of being friends with people who have no concept of punctuality. Is it really that hard to be on time?

Ordering some books, including Looking For Alaska. I have been hearing really great things about John Green for a long time now so I decided to go for it and order some of his books.

Trying without success to build a Sims house that is both unique and good-looking.

Grr, I've tried four times and everything I come up with looks ridiculous.

Just got back from birthday brunch with my big brother, and now I'm going to settle in and watch The Hunger Games, courtesy of my brother.

Going to go to bed soon. I've been in a funk all day and I'm just ready to sleep.

Goodnight, girls. See you in a couple days, or whenever the downtime is over.

I met up with my roommate from university this evening. As soon as we walked into the pub this man called, "Hi gorgeous!" at me... it would have been more flattering if he and his friend had been a) less than 20 years my senior and b) actually attractive. But still, I'll take what I can get, I guess!

I cannot count how many times my friends stood me up in the last minute, leaving me all alone in the street.

On a different note, I am currently watching stuff on youtube, sneezing a lot while not being sick and wondering how the hell am I supposed to paint a hall, two rooms and various parts of the flat all in less than 6 or 7 hours! This painting thing really is growing on me.

Going to watch the last two episodes of Freezing.

My mom was okay with me watching things like that. I've never been so relieved.

OH My Gosh, I am back and I thought I would never return, BUT I could not help myself, I mean I missed playing my Simmies (which I am currently doing again ), AND I missed signing in and hanging out in The Girls Club (YIPPEE). In short, "I'm BACKA Lacka CaLacka!! LOL!!!

Trying to vacuum my living room, but my dog keeps attacking the vacuum cleaner, most dogs just run away from it... I wish my dog was one of those.

Watching Friends and making bracelets

Waiting for my brother to finish getting ready. We're going out for my birthday dinner tonight and I swear my brother takes twice as long as I do to primp.

What Are You Doing Right Now: What I'm doing right now, IS I'm making a Weird Scientist Simmie who just happens to be (Ugly-Smuggly-FrickenFracking MotherFucking Fuggly) for a Lot that I've had planned for some time now, YEAP!!!! Simmies is soooo Much fun...I mean OHMYGosh and stuffeiths!