The great cleaning up of the swirling vortex of entropy is still in progress. I rearranged some jars, decorated the remaining 2 of the 6 half-gallon and the 1 gallon with custom bumper stickers and currently working on a system for loose change for my savings for my droid project. I plan to save at least 41¢ in change daily in my stash.

So far, I received 5¢ and quickly put it in the Greed jar.

(Obvious, yes, but I get paid weekly and currently working on deferring my purchases and shopping around for cheap, but effective, solutions.)

I already have a €2 piece from an unusual Dollar Tree trip. But it's only about $2.14 currently and once fluctuated to about $2.17 from my last check prior.

So, for now, it's just a collectible coin due to the fact I can't exchange it nor can I part with such a lucky little charm.

(I think I should minimize as much glass as I can. I am a clumsy person and I may consider switching to plastic jars and lids for my cash\change savings methods. Most of the stuff I personally researched price, material sources and everything else required for it.)

Currently, I am donating items to various places.

I found some maxi pads I no longer use due to manufacturing issues that don't sit with my body. I am giving them to the women's shelters. Period poverty is a serious issue and yes, the pink tax is complete crap and menstrual products like pads and tampons should be considered a necessity because a huge portion of Earth uses them (about 51% of Earth is comprised of women, according to the records at last count.)

I found a bunch of piggy banks, 5 of which are the Moon jar type. I never really used them. I have one more in my room shaped like a football 🏈.

I am currently working on getting my bedroom cleaned up. I probably will buy banker boxes and store things in them like various small plush and plastic dolls, plastic money jars, and books.

I probably decided to label the plastic lids on the jars with label tape and\or Sharpies instead of colorful lids. Much more cost effective over time to use such methods.

I recently remember someone saying on Twitter that, now both their parents were dead, they could write whatever they wanted on Twitter without backlash and then started to miss their parents. I gave an "I feel you" moment for them.

During a social experiment at 19, living with my grandparents for a couple months in Spring 2007, midway through the experiment, my parents sent a giant care package of Japanese and West Coast groceries I grew accustomed to.

Even though I was trying to build independence, I couldn't help but miss them a little for knowing my likes and sending out my favorite things.

No packages from A2Z Mart until Saturday. I bought a periwinkle padlock, a crystal razor bar, more toothpaste for my special U shaped toothbrush and a doll for my collection over the course of the first week of this month and the last couple of days of February.

Period came today and it was the old, nightmarish, pre-PCOS-treatment, "I'm your uterus and I make the rules. You crossed the border into Hurtville and I am going to render you into a quivering puddle like back in high school, you wimpy little freak!" type of period.

I had these as a teenager and sometimes, I would be called in sick from school because all I did was sleep off the pain.

From an American view, this is what is up against us:

Only a tiny sum of countries, mostly Asian ones have "menstrual leave", a 3 day leave for their female employees with severe menses (Japan being one of them.) and Spain currently is the only Western nation that recently enacted menstrual leave.

Along with 4 day work weeks, extensions on parental leave and off-the-clock disconnect, other countries are making us look bad. We in the USA work too much until our aspirations are practically beaten out of us.

I had a pleasant day. Lately, cleaning up my room is certainly keeping me busy and good news, the Saturday package is coming on Friday (tomorrow).

Lately, I got fed up with the clutter and decided to fix the room myself! I had 3 good days in a row and even Ms. CS, my therapist noted I have been less stressed and having a better outlook.

Been thinking of going back to dyeing my hair to get a change of pace going and it's been years since doing so.

I think, in honor of the passing of the character designer of G Gundam, I will dye it blue with pink bangs as I was born in America and the American rep in the show's global nature had that configuration.

I already have pink dye for the bangs, it's finding enough blue as I have long hair with a bit of volume. If you're wondering about bleaching as I have dark brown hair, the dye comes in a kit with bleach that I used to use in 7th through 12th of secondary and beyond.

I might self-tan and wear bright colorful clothes again.

Ranch flavored ice cream?

Did some calculations of my projected spendings for April 2023 and I see about $300 of my money going to health products. Stuff like toothpaste, maxi pads, surgical masks for venturing to the doctor, pill case for supplements, said supplements, and replacement U shaped heads for the electric toothbrush I use.

Oh, well...at least my local United Way office signed me up for a wait list in the event some kind of allowance system opens up in terms of eligibility to assist me in life.

In other news, I recently dealt with cleaning up my bedroom, bathroom and pantries for the past 10 days or so...I lost track of time as I have been busy with cleaning up the floor, removing trash, relocating items, sending laundry through the wash, donating unwanted items...but with all the dolls I received in the mail, I only opened one and I have yet to open them. I probably will play music in the background and cut where applicable. I will probably do that in the morning.

I prefer to take the dolls out as the box could have mold or spiders inside if left alone long enough in uncontrolled environments. Walmart recently was reported by fans of the Rainbow High franchise for dolls in boxes containing black mold. Also, older doll boxes don't get sealed tight enough that sometimes, small bugs will make it their home.

(A doll collector\crafter a while back once encountered a spider while unboxing a rare doll. Unboxing rare dolls is heresy for some, but to me, I don't recall people handing out awards for MIB and NRFB doll collections.)

Also, ranch dressing ice cream? I was told of hot tamale Peeps and bacon flavored cotton candy. The ice cream wins the oddball award for "What are you taking to come up with such a product?" category!

Still on a clean up kick. I have emptied all 13 of my cash boxes and found coin wrappers, currency straps for Bill notes and 2¢. I placed the 2¢ in one of the jars on my dresser.

Planning to donate the boxes and I even attached the according keys to the handles of the respective boxes.

Ever had a really weird crush on someone or somebody? Well, in my constant isolation, I ended up crushing on Jim Carrey.

Yes, I am a woman who enjoys a man who can make me laugh 😅.

I know every single little bit of trivial information about him that makes for incompatibility in the Crushosphere. And yet, he got in...damned four walled prison, the house I called my sanctuary, how did it come to this?

Yes, I am feeling like I have sunk to a desperate all-time low.

I cleaned up my hard drive by getting rid of duplicate files, unboxed 3 dolls out of 21 I accumulated in the past 2 months (I opened one the day I received it in the mail), received a package that came a month late, and finished moving my instructional drawing books to a stronger shelf.

I am on a spring cleaning kick. I am donating feminine products that are still in the unopened packages (in other words, still sealed in the store packaging), piggy banks, coin purses, and cash boxes with the included according keys. Unfortunately, when in a manic state, I tend to go overboard with things.

I tend to throw myself heart and soul into everything I do...but that's part of my problems...I just am impulsive when my bipolar kicks in, that it takes some shaking up to get me to think straight again. It's the same with my father, which I inherited it.

My mother suffers the most because it's like the "cut the blue wire to disarm the bomb" trope when dealing with our episodes, but the hard part with my father and I is...all the wires are blue.

I try not to let it define me. I am an interesting person to be around. I have a wide and varied doll collection from Mattel, Hasbro, MGA Entertainment.

Currently, I'm saving up for a new doll line by DreamCleod LLC called "Wild Childz" which is similar to Monster High, but instead of famous monsters, it's animals in anthropomorphic style with similar bodies. Most of the featured animals are endangered species and mammals, although I got a sneak peek at Wave 2 and there is a reptile among them. I also noted they are still in development after 8 years. It's a great idea.

Had Disney using Hasbro not drove down the sales of Ever After High to failure, I would have liked to have seen one of the dolls, Daring Charming, not be completely made of plastic.

Either way, aside from collecting and modifying dolls, I collect physical media like CDs, DVDs, BDs and the occasional VHS. I am currently saving up for a VCR to access a tape I made freshman year of high school (my college scholarship was dropped in 2008, along with my assembly line worker position at Boeing and my estate planning went down the toilet with all my family's trust fund money...this happened when the economy soured) to see if there was a prophecy within the scrambled madness of slapped together footage.

I also collect miniatures for dollhouse photoshoots and I am considering building a bunch of sets for 1-upping my photoshoot game with a little decoration.

In other news, I will be getting my face trimmer tomorrow (March 16) and I can finally get rid of that Frida Kahlo monobrow, that straying mole hair and my Frenchie mustache ended up growing so out of control these past few weeks, it's more a Fu Manchu by how thick and long it got (PCOS can do that with facial hair if left unchecked in personal grooming.)

My computer was worked on, I took out the trash in my bedroom and bathroom, I added more items to the donate pile, I threw out a dead DVD player and its remote...I even worked on a playlist for my wedding.

I got a lot done before noon.

I'm pretty shy and lovelorn, even introverted when I am not performing everyday comedy. My ambiverted nature does mean I am cat-like wanting to come in or go out. The stamina to withstand people isn't that strong. I eventually tire out.

Hello, I'm back.

Feels like I've come back from the dead. Life is suddenly worth living again. No more numbing myself with medication every day, no more stress-biting at my arms, no more late nights and early mornings, no more 12 hour shifts with no sleep. All is right with the world again. Or something. My landlord is still causing me problems, but I become homeless at the end of the month and quite frankly I'm looking forward to it

Hi @Bigsimsfan12 !

More stuff donated, more items being prepared for repurposing for organization.

I also did more backing up my work on physical format, which, unfortunately meant I finally am out of discs in Blu-Ray format.

This morning I did some price comparison and found myself stocking up on blank physical media and supplements for my health.

I have been working on a money collection system. Long story short, I have my ways.

My parents went to a party for my father's baby brother. He turned 50. I had the house to myself and did calculations in budgeting and I think I will be under budget next month.

I'm thinking about rewatching "Bruce Almighty". I mean, as someone who plays God in her spare time and has basic theological knowledge to pass in "Jeopardy!", I easily find it entertaining.

The last time I watched it was when I was 18 and visiting a work friend of my father with my parents, whom I also had a really bad crush on (I really got to stop letting my heart, among other things, guide me when my brain breaks) and I remember reading the behind the scenes articles.

According to Jennifer Aniston, Jim Carrey was very physical in the bedroom scene that it left her bruised. During filming, his insistence to do a shot 30 times was likely why.

But they also had denied anything implied or inferred when Jim pushed Jennifer out of the way of a falling crane during a break between takes.

In any case, early morning was a nightmare. The cat yowled at me, waking me up and then went to the master suite and woke up my parents with the same yowling.

She thinks she's singing "Ave Maria" like an opera singer.

She sounds like she's singing "The Immigrant Song" by Robert Plant of Led Zeppelin.

3/20/2023
I took two naps today. I am likely to say to nap time "Sorry I was a jerk as a toddler."

I also got blood work news from Dr. MP, my nephrologist. She said I was fine.

My "cyborg" physician said she can push the immediate opening a week out as I get my father to take me to my health clearance appointments. Replacement parts, here I come!

Also, still working on that wedding playlist for the reception. I'm sifting through quality 1970s and 1980s disco hits popular on both sides of the Atlantic and Pacific. I also am working on 1990s through present day house music as well. Just remember, I was well ahead of the Eurodance curve since Haddaway's "What Is Love?".

In the coming weeks, I will be out of office for an implant replacement for my "cyborg" issues.

Next week is preadmission.

Meanwhile, I am planning on getting my hair done after recovery from my surgery and I decided to dye it a raspberry red.

My circle on Twitter is wishing me luck on the surgery and my friend and I discussed the 1989 animated Disney's "The Little Mermaid" rough draft developments like Ariel was supposed to be blonde and Triton and Ursula, IIRC, were siblings.

Talking of King Triton, my father is acting like a big jerk, and not the good kind.

Edit:

Found 3 accordion file attaché cases, from small to large:

1.) One for important medical documents.
2.) One that held a surviving design of a designer onesie of Bulbasaur from Pokémon. It was an old design because my art styles have improved since drawing kigurumi designs in circa 2011.
3.) One used for a giant project as it has about 60 pockets. I have yet to work out the details of how to best utilize that large one for the better.

I am awaiting instructions from my "cyborg" physician on nerve implant replacement. My father and grandfather are "cyborg-like". With my father has a synthetic knee and my grandfather has a pacemaker...you got three generations of mad scientists with fake body parts but real accolades, regardless of staying within science or not.

My grandfather invented a collagen skin graft dressing for scrapes that become scabs, but the bulk of the money was wasted on his boss's show dogs, so he has his skeptical side.

My father was a program manager at Microsoft for 15 years and was able to pay for my health insurance before I got state-based services.

I was an MVP at a school so tiny, the sports subdivision was between boys VS. girls and I was the Top Girl MVP. But I did nearly injured my teacher in the process.

At last check from long ago, he and his family left for Japan when I graduated from the training school to teach American kids on Japan's naval station because his wife was a Naval officer of some sort.

Right now, I have my moments to daydream. I actually miss the old Disney movies when princesses got involved in action, romance, suspense and the happily ever afters.

But the romance especially. Jasmine is a great example in the Aladdin trilogy of marrying for love and someone she approved of, instead of by her birthday in her late teens to a prince and it was so very feminist to assert her intentions of spurring her father, the Sultan, to revise the laws regarding rulers of the kingdom to say the princess can choose her worthy husband.

The above paragraph was inspired from a comment on a 1 star review for Toy Story 4 being "unfeminist" for Sheriff Woody and Bo Peep falling in love.

The most feminist thing a woman could do is choose from her pick of people "Mr.\Ms. Right" as falling in love is a human experience that people neglect nowadays.

When an emotional force as strong as love is written in verse, you can take the story in any direction you want.

With Toy Story 5 in development, a lot of entertainment media outlets are expressing in editorials that closure for Sid Phillips, the toy Dr. Frankenstein, who, after his encounter with the mutant toys and Woody scaring him practically shitless, he deserves some special attention to address what was essentially a trauma, especially as a preteen. We only see cameos of Sid work in the sanitation department in Toy Story 3.

Pixar has been accused of putting out so many sequels, but long time employees, Pete Docter included, said. "Sequels are just our way of keeping the lights on."

For physical media collectors, Disney has plans for physical media to get released again as streaming isn't as lucrative as they projected originally.

Ugh. I always get so stressed when the landlord visits. Husband is hoovering the stairs right now while the baby naps on me. I feel like I should be doing something more productive... but also there's literally nothing to do. But also she always finds something to complain about. She wants to "inspect the walls for mold" for whatever reason. She requested I move all my furniture. Not a clue where she thinks I can move it to where she can see all my walls but ok whatever. Can't wait to have her scream at me over that. Common sense thing to do would be to inspect them after I've moved out next week and there's no furniture in the house, but kk whatever.

Had a pack of bread flour (the ready-mix kind you just add water and yeast to) and made bread rolls.

Last time I tried this, the dough barely rose (I think the yeast wasn't properly activated, or maybe I didn't knead it well enough, I don't know - I've never had the best success with yeast doughs...), but this time the first rise almost climbed over the bowl, and it at least seemed like the thing was a bit fluffier.

The rolls didn't quite rise as much as I'd hoped (still decent size, but I think they did most of the rise during the pre-rise and not the cooking), but they did come out better than the breads I tried with the same kind of flour last time. Those were kinda flat... :/

Tasted good, though

Today was otherwise uneventful.

But sometimes, no news is good news.

I am currently detoxing from unnecessary medicine, medication, vitamins, minerals, and supplements that could thin my blood prior to my operation.

Edit: 3/25/2023

Going cold turkey is not fun when you are less than 2 weeks away from going under the knife for replacement implants.

At least being a cyborg in regards to my implants, I could say to those who stare at me "Stop staring at my circuits!" Or, because the battery is implanted in my butt, if I felt so inclined to ward off an undesirable person "Bite my battery-powered ass!"

I am actually kind, but I can get pushed too hard and push back.

Started my new diet and exercise regimen.

I actually broke through 10,000 steps on my pedometer app.

I have been tracking my meals on a dieting app.

I also plan on exercising gym exercises on Wednesday thru Friday each week.

My calories went overboard today, but it's my first day, so mistakes will happen.

Since March 2020, I lost about 10 pounds a year on average. At my worst, I was 311.5 pounds and now I am 282 pounds, so 30 pounds a year is great...but the energy from all that cleaning in the past month got the momentum going.

I want to weight around 120-125 pounds for my height of about 5'0”.

I fell behind today, I was about a little under 2,000 steps of my minimum of 6,000 steps.

But, I did spend the weekend I share with my mother eating delicious take out like pizza by the slice, McDonald's Chicken McNuggets...I wonder what tomorrow holds.

I am still getting the hang of exercising, but I do walking in circles, hip-hop dancing, full-body workouts, exercising on a couch or bed... it's getting too easy.

I even have plans to replace my wardrobe with smaller clothes when I drop all the weight.

I find myself burning off quite a lot of energy.

Remember, I am trying to go from 311.5 pounds to a range between 120-125 on a good day, which is normal BMI for the 5' and under set. Currently at 282 pounds. My old fighting weight when I was a little taller and loud. (I shrank a couple inches.)

I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow morning, Wednesday, for a check before a quality of life operation concerning my cyborg parts.

Today on "The Medical Misadventures of PANDAQUEEN"...

Last, a visit to the hospital revealed had lost quite a bit of weight and is around 282 pounds.

She also gave blood.

This morning, she has an appointment with her primary care provider for further investigation before getting her implant replacement operation performed.

Let me guess, something broke, the animals are running wild, or Dingus and The Boy screwed up some simple task or, and this is what I noticed, a corporate entity has once again shown its incompetence?

I have a movie in transit that was supposed to be here in the NJ boonies YESTERDAY, but it shipped out from California!

Also, I am still waffling between a Disneybounding cosplay or working on my Pokémon Pokédex in every region, but I heard Generation 5 Pokémon might get locked out due to the closure of the 3DS eShop.

I saw yet another competitor to The Sims Series enter the ring. Dubbed "Life by You", it is more open world than The Sims 3 was and it was headed by former Sims employee, Rod Humble. Although I already give up $1 each month toward the crowdfunding of Paralives, as a gamer, I want to see how the competition fares now that a third challenger entered.

I am dreading this upcoming Tuesday as that is my electric implant replacement operation.

Well, lucky for me, my appointment is a green light for launch. I am happy to report that this girl will be spoiled rotten while recuperating from her implant replacement next week.

I went shopping and was able to pick up some things I desired, required and has ambivalence for the longest time.

I bought a shave ice and snow cone automatic machine and additional extra parts as I meant to do so for a couple years and today, I bit the proverbial bullet and bought the equipment.

However, I only have grenadine syrup in my house right now. It can wait. I need to recuperate and maybe watch Match Game on BUZZR. Best not to operate machines until the anesthesia wears off.

My father will be assisting me during my recuperation, so I won't be alone.

Doing fine, just that I'm not as motivated as I used to like 10 years ago. Trying to find motivation to continue my custom content projects which I've not touched since then.
I'm slowly losing interest in the series, I'm not sure why. It's that feeling where you wanna go back and play The Sims, but your brain's all like, "eh, forget it".

I'm hoping my next creation won't be my last and final one.

I'm awake in the middle of the night and just fretting.

Another year, another quality of life operation. With such frequency of doctor and hospital visits, I deserve to have my punch card reimbursed for a full body slimming and a lifetime supply of foods from the keto diet section of the hippie-dippy supermarket.

(I already cut some bad foods out that were overprocessed and checking my charts of progress, I need more veggies, healthy fats and proteins over carbs and common table sugar or the dreaded HFCS.)

As far as our donation box is going, obviously I have an obsession with money containers. The women's shelter and food bank will probably appreciate my contributions as well.

My room keeps giving back as I find new things.

I also got back into Pokémon Catching and for some reason, I have like 3 Charmanders in my Pokémon Home account. I was usually one to go with a water starter since Squirtle back when I was a kid and we were unsure of how well-received the franchise would be...well-received.

Still, we're at Generation 9 and have finally exceeded 1,000 Pokémon, not counting regional or variant forms...time to go to work while I am laid up with stitching in my back.

Yeah, I miss the thrill of the battles and chase as I find less and less time in my 30s to want to achieve my childhood ambition of catching all of them.

If Nintendo puts the old Pokémon games on their Nintendo Switch Online service, the franchise could easily top into the $1 trillion arena, being that worldwide, it garners nearly over $900 billion in various merchandise sales, making one of the most recognizable franchises with Pikachu as the flagship mascot alongside Mario at Nintendo, and Disney's Mickey Mouse and Warner Brothers' Bugs Bunny.

The above paragraph was thought about the economic power and also the emotional investment we put in such ideas.

As far as copycat franchises (as it was in development for 7 years) like Digimon, Yo-Kai Watch and the like, they'll have their cult status adoration for fans and anything emotional attached, but sometimes, success isn't based on sales alone.

Emotional investment and parasocial relationships with characters who have relatable traits tend to last forever.