Reviewing my summer activity list

So far. I have collected nearly all the Disney 1990s Renaissance movies and sequels. I would then have to start work on the 2003 and onward, including stuff from Pixar. Luckily. I know the best sellers in the secondhand markets through Amazon.

Currently working on earning money to get my hair styled so I can further style it.

Burning pertinent information to disc. The 128GB BDXL-Rs are great.

I play on making tons of gummy bears on Sundays and Mondays as I have free space in the kitchen. I am still new at it. Scratch that, I think I rather buy candies than make candies. Besides, summer may not be the best time.

Working on my Pokémon games and Living Pokédex. In the past 24 hours as of this writing, I caught a Corphish, Clamperl, Skarmory, and I evolved a Horsea to a Seadra and a Ducklett into a Swanna. Still have a ways to go to get badge #06 as I face off against Iono and her Electric types. It's good that I have quite a few Rock types to power through.

I have the mainline games and Pokémon GO, hence if it's confusing to you.

Either way, I am trying to earn back my keep as my parents are returning to work on Wednesday. My mom is currently dealing with spinal issues that are affecting her body and my dad unfortunately has been dealing with drama at Walmart as he grouses about the employees.

I have occupational therapy tomorrow afternoon. My left arm is pretty badly strained.

As for self-checkout, I find it to be impersonal. Glad people are wising up that nothing beats the satisfaction of human interaction, especially after the pandemic.

The world situation is starting to look up because the famous part of a phrase that goes "You can't fool all the people all the time!"

The day started off pretty lame - I drove downtown and was struggling to find parking somewhere in the dense 2nd zone. I had quite a walk to get to my bank from where I finally parked; I had to pick up my renewed debit card. The branch still works as it did during covid - Mon, Wed, Fri mornings; Tue, Thu - afternoon. I turned around and went to run some errands over at uni, which there happened to be more than I expected, and I managed to do it all! Feeling very productive. Now just to transfer that productivity over to coursework...

I had occupational therapy and I will get a call back once they straighten out the red tape for future appointments.

Otherwise, I spent today cooking heat and eat foods in the microwave, typing and catching Pokémon in Pokémon GO. Currently working on getting a Kingdra and Crawdaunt.

I even bought some gummy bears that were part of the "True to Fruit" line at Albanese. Either way, I am arming myself with knowledge as it is one of the greatest powers of the universe.

I went to the library today to pass some time and to mostly keep up going out into the world despite the spiritual warfare; that's going to happen regardless. (Which reminds me, I half way started watching The Matrix and it just felt different this time around. Like yeah, I have the same questions and feelings as Neo; I'm no one special, why me? But apparently some know more about me than I do myself.) At the library I saw two men sleeping off to the side at the desks and wondered if they were homeless. I was going to pick that spot if it were available but that's okay, there's a lot of space in that library which I really like.

Also this heat wave/high humidity is just too much sometimes. And it seems is pretty much synonymous with this season in my life right now. Which I forget already the name of the book I read at the library about the author going through seasons in her life. Something about feelings...(Feelings: A Story in Seasons by Manjit Thapp)

I read a graphic novel called Pulp by Ed Brubaker and Sean Phillips. I related to that one as well.

And another graphic novel I read called Radium Girls by Cy (Loved the artstyle and color scheme). I remember reading or watching something about that and thinking how sad. Unfortunately, that still happens to this day but in a possibly different aspect and the majority aren't even aware of it. There's always going to be people who know the full dangers and risks but omit certain things from the public; intentionally so.

Then I kind of just browsed a bit through other graphic novels and read a little bit about Batman. One of the Joker's henchmen was checking his phone alert about the identity of Superman is Clark Kent (Oh shocker, because you know, it's not like Superman hides his face or anything; just a different hairstyle and no glasses. But that's just good old classic superhero storytelling logic.) and told the other henchman he thinks the Joker knows the real identity of Batman but why wouldn't he already just let the world know. Of course the Joker was behind him and overheard everything; it's pretty obvious the Joker knew very early on. Again superhero storytelling logic. Who else could Batman be? He can afford state-of-the-art technology for his batsuit, batmobile, batwing, etc. He clearly has to be extremely wealthy. You can see his eye color, his skin color, his physique; it's not rocket science.

If I were to write a superhero tale, I'm not going by any of that because it makes no sense to me. At least in Spider-Man, for the most part, his identity really is hidden. You just know male, physique, height...that's pretty much it. Oh and voice...oh right voice. Well, that's a dead giveaway except in Batman's case he typically gives himself a much deeper voice as Batman.

I am having a good day. My time spent in the library was quite entertaining and hopefully the next time I don't forget my pullover hoodie because I get cold easily after a while. I also ate most of my snacks on the way back since I skipped breakfast.

I keep wanting to plan daily tasks for myself but sometimes its just too hot! And yet I keep going out there, lol. But you know from what I notice, being out and about helps me to keep moving and focus my attention on the present and whatever my task is. I see a lot of people, some of them are rude, some of them are genuinely nice, some of them are different (I get so excited when I notice someone walking on their tip toes and/or being so carefree being totally themselves not having any care about the perception of others. I start noticing more and more neurodivergent people and they make me so happy.), some are understanding and helpful (like that time my brain got stuck in a loop and I couldn't reset on my own and a man helped me out instead of making fun of me. It's rare but sometimes my brain just gets stuck 'processing' and I get so single-minded; thus getting stuck and sometimes need help to reset. Or the time I forgot my wallet in the dressing room and I know it wasn't a coincidence that someone took that very same one and said hey you forgot this and I said thank you. Oh boy, am I sometimes forgetful but at least Someone is looking out for me and knows me better than I know myself.)

And some people I meet along my journey are spiritual. Like the 2nd prophetess I came across so far in my life. I was listening to her talk but then she started saying specific events and things related to me and the people at the time in my life and other things. Sometimes I couldn't tell if I was crying or the wind in my sensitive eyes was making them water. I think it was both, lol.

I'll probably rewatch The Matrix from beginning to end but initially I started experiencing derealization or maybe it was dissociation. That's something I haven't felt in awhile. Sometimes I still experience depersonalization. Why looking in the mirror sometimes is like l'm seeing myself in the 3rd person as if having an outer body experience? Something feels disconnected, who is she? Who am I? Why don't I recognize myself?

Oh and that toddler with the binky in his mouth that walked from his mother despite his mother calling him back multiple times, around my chair, held on to the table I was sitting at and looked directly at me; if I replay what I was doing and what was going through my mind at that time, I can understand the meaning of that encounter. It was a gentle but stern look on his face. That toddler was on a mission and then he went back to his mother. Faith without sight. There also have to be a reason why I'm noticing more neurodivergent people as well. Care-free, okay.

Speaking of carefree, I have been seeing some wildlife that makes me so cheery. I saw this cute little chipmunk and tried to get as close as possible while talking to the little guy who had its mouth full of something and wasn't really afraid of me the closer I got but did eventually run off once I got too close. I love animals and nature. There also was this cute, groundhog?, I seen. And I haven't seen a dragonfly in like forever, it kind of scared me because their flight patterns are just unpredictable to me and looks unusual, lol.

The other day as I was pulling stuff out for donation, I came across the clock somebody gave Dingus and I when we got married. I never knew where to put said clock as it has to sit on a surface, so it kept being shuffled around from room to room. At some point I took the battery out of it so it wouldn't corrode.

After I was done leaving a trail of mess all over the house, I decided to put a battery in the clock as I found a spot for it. Yeah, no. Apparently I've been holding on to a broken clock as it didn't work. It was a fresh battery, I tested said battery to make sure it was good and still... nothing.

Brought the TV and ancient computer to Best Buy to be recycled.

Last year when I had to replace my sims rig, Best Buy pretty much gave me a ultimatum. Either become a member so anything that was wrong with the new system I bought would be covered, or suck it up and pay a restocking fee if it needed to be returned. They went on to justify this BS by telling me that with the yearly membership, anything purchased in the store is covered by this 'extended warranty.' I agreed to it with rolled eyes as I had already got a dud system from them and didn't feel like losing more money.

Getting back to the other day..

Upon bringing the TV and old computer in to be recycled, I found out members don't have to pay the recycling fee for things with screens. I've been in and out of that store over the past year recycling stuff. Now I'm wondering how many times I've been charged a recycling fee when I shouldn't have been. Meh.

Other than that, I'm waiting for all the disgusting weather to go away. The swampy humidity go somewhere else...

Just finished a small bed for a few herbs. I'm planning to plant a bunch of heather on the sandy/clay-y part of the garden and hope to attract butterflies and more bees.

Also last weekend, the younger brother of my best friend told me that the bro fist I gave him when we first met, he was 9 or 10, has turned into a core memory for him. He's 20 now. That was great to hear

Got a Disney DVD from Canada. I'm still working on my Disney DVD collection from around the world. Started off with Japanese copies of the Lilo & Stitch TV series that was part of the Lilo & Stitch saga.

Yes, they are official DVDs from Japan, complete with anti-piracy disclaimer and hotline number for Japan, epilepsy seizure warning, the commentary warning and, in true Disney fashion, coming attractions trailers and a special anniversary retrospect for Tokyo Disneyland anniversary since opening in 1983. The anniversary in question was the 25th anniversary.

I have yet to check the Canadian DVD.

I also got my medical preparations ready. I bought 6 liters of Fiji water. (I usually splurge on bottled water if I must go through the process of giving blood or I have to go through surgery\sedated dentistry.)

When it came to my favorite candy...The gummy bears were a gamble. The fancy world flavors were warped, but somehow the American favorites survived the heat.

I would like to thank all the people that have been using my local donation place as their personal dumpster. Almost all of the brand new fish tank gear wasn't accepted because people have been dropping off "filthy pet-related things" ( no further details were offered) so now said donation place refuses most pet related things. They did take the AC-70 filter because it was still wrapped. Everything else they refused to take because it didn't have plastic wrap. The stuff didn't have plastic wrap when I bought it, I digress.

Thanks filthy people! You're awesome for donating your gross stuff.

This past week, I voted for which doll will debut with another already chosen (I didn't know about the first one because I was busy with appointments, activism and adulting. Those 3 As were why I was out of the loop) and the company will reveal the results on Monday. Small company and it's about to hit Walmart shelves.

Either way, the septic tank, which was in need of repair, was pumped, fixed and I am currently working on the dishes for part of my work around the house.

I even made my floral tea version of an Arnold Palmer.

This time I went out and it was raining, still high humidity but raining and I love the rain, I also love how the pavement becomes reflective and then the environment has a whole different vibe to it. My mother told me I was born while it was raining...actually in the rain, albeit covered by my mother's maxi skirt. Yes, I was born in a park because the hospital staff sent a woman in labor home saying it was just an infection. My mother would joke, yeah I was the infection, lol. She tried to take the bus to her mother's but I wasn't waiting and she had no choice but to not only go into labor but deliver me herself. It's funny because in The Sims 3 if you choose to have the baby without going to the hospital, the relationship between child and mother will be higher. Though I don't know if that has any real world correlation all the time, but my mother and I had a close bond.

So the rain, right. I wore really long pants and they got wet at the bottom but that didn't bother me too much. The wet shoes and socks did moreso.

I went to get an eye exam and some new glasses because its been years, so I'm excited for when they are ready. I know I have myopia but I didn't know I also have astigmatism too. That explains seeing lights at night with streaks and I just thought that was normal for everyone. Then I went to the store to attempt to stay out a little longer because housekeeping sometimes be early or late so I don't know. I'm trying not to spend money but glasses were important, I literally need it to see and a backup pair is always welcomed because I never know with my clumsy self.

While at the store, when getting into line, I noticed another neurodivergent person, yay! He was one who talked like in a monotone manner and I guess it was his mother he was with telling her why he liked that store and then stating other things. I overheard her say, "Gee, what would I ever do without you?" I picked up the sarcasm but I wonder if he did? But that reminds me how I also have this thing where I state the obvious. I don't know why, I just do sometimes.

Then the cashier I saw a few times already, I suspect he may be neurodivergent too, unless I'm confusing him with someone else. Mid-way scanning my items he just pauses, flips his hair to the side and gazes at me. Interesting, I don't know how it is for others but for me eye contact is one of the ways I connect to others. Sometimes though I start overthinking, "Am I staring too much?" Some people will return an intense gaze but some dart their eyes all over the place. I also self-diagnose myself with staring OCD besides other OCD. Though I think the staring is moreso related to autism or a mix of that and OCD is my educated guess.

Like every time I walk pass Victoria's Secret I just love looking at the floor with all the shiny sparkles in it. Or when I see rocks with anything sparkly I get mesmerized. Then there was the rare occurrence years back when fixating on my instructor's groin. It's weird because my mind is blank and most of the time I'm not even consciously aware that I'm staring because then I just dissociate but sometimes I wake up on my own from my brain's hibernation mode. My mind, as I mentioned is just blank, I'm not thinking of anything. But for some odd reason there's like some sort of cue that I instinctively would stare at his groin and I don't know why. At least he wasn't rude about it and make me feel bad. I think because he was really tall and from a seated position that's my eye level and somehow I got stuck staring there. Thinking back, I'm surprised that the more that happened, he started to somehow break me out of the trance. How did he figure to do that, I wonder? Though I admit it is jarring. I don't know how else to explain it except it's like being present physically without being present mentally in an external sense. Mentally, I go somewhere internally but its like some kind of empty space. No thoughts, no emotions, no nothing.

There is another mode my brain goes into but it's like a deep lucid daydream, to the point someone could literally be waving their hand in front of my face trying to wake me up and I won't right away, usually. That happened when I was in 5th grade and it still happens though no one is trying to get my attention.

It's interesting because there was a classmate who did that, she would stare but be in her own world and then someone would tell her to stop staring at them and they would get mad when she wasn't responding initially. Then she would have to explain, which most don't understand and then she would ask me if I think she's weird because everyone calls her that. Well, she's really the only one at that school I felt super comfortable with so thinking back she might have been undiagnosed for autism and then that would explain why I never saw her as weird. But that's not to say that all neurotypical people think that neurodivergent people are weird. And even within the neurodivergent spectrum doesn't mean we all get along either as is also the case with the neurotypical spectrum.

Hmm, how much did I get off topic?...yeah that's another trait of mine. I will go from topic to topic and sometimes without warning at all and just be all over the place. But my mother would say she wouldn't know what I be talking about sometimes because I just change topics without warning and frequently, but eventually as she continued to listen to me she would figure it out, lol. Well I'm glad she cared and listened to me despite it being difficult to keep track. I'm pretty sure that trait is reminiscent of my mind thinking so many things at once and I try to start talking about everything going through my mind.

Oh and maybe the cashier was flirting with me? But I don't know. I'm not going to overthink that. Besides, I'm the type of person that needs verbal confirmation because people can give mixed body signals or sometimes it can be interpreted wrong when it's wasn't meant that way at all.

And the self-diagnosed OCD isn't the type where I feel like if I don't do x, y or z then something bad is going to happen. I don't have to do any of my OCD tasks and I'll be fine; it's more a strong preference like facing all the labels to the front so I can see it, turning all the lights off when I'm not using it, organizing things by size, color, alphabetical order, etc. What annoys me to no end though is when someone knows I have a way of doing things and intentionally just doesn't care and messes everything up. Then has a nerve to mention it and be proud of the absolute disrespect. But you know what? I've learned so much more about myself these last few years than I have in a very long time.

"Develop a negative into a positive picture." -Lauryn Hill

Doing chores again. I'm currently working on slowly acclimating to the work load.

Also working on a project with a big impact. NDAs are involved. But it's going to be a long hard slog toward the finish.

Some of us got temporarily reassigned to replace that team that was problematic/stupid/fired/eliminated (take your pick).

Guess who they chose?



Their processes and procedures are so weird and stupid. How the hell did this even happen- weren't they audited like the rest of us? Bet this is the other part of the story we were unaware of back when the drama was unfolding. Ugh. Anyway, they'd better find real replacements for that the canned team cos this is not my job and I don't wanna have to do it any longer than I have to. Tansferable skills are cool and all. But you know what's cooler? Doing the job I'm actually contracted to do.


Also I don't like the team lead, dunno who she is or where they found her but like no thanks.

Oops, everything got deleted because I accidentally exited out the browser. It's a shame this site doesn't have auto save like the official The Sims forums did.

Couldn't sleep last night, that's not unusual though and plus new neighbors slamming doors at night and early mornings. Like I already deal with enough of that slamming from housekeeping which is annoying alongside the other loud noises and vibrations. Like I'm here because of circumstance and besides it doesn't matter where I go because I'm always going to run into people who have problems with me regardless. And I have no idea why housekeeping decided to change the time on the clock an hour pass the original time and then change it to military time while also erasing the time on the microwave. (This morning I did change the clocks back.) It's always petty stuff with some people. Is it people? It's annoying dealing with people and their demons.

Another reason I had trouble sleeping last night: I also thought about a question I posed to myself last night about someone's intentions and reviewing the information in my mind. I am not interested in dating or romance or any of that right now. Especially, it being easy for a man to use a power play against me. I've read stories and was warned about it from a classmate based on her personal experience so yeah no. I had to go back and review the information I stored in my subconscious during the real-time event because sometimes it's too emotionally and/or psychologically overwhelming for me to process in the moment. As long as I go back to it eventually, its fine if that's my coping mechanism. 9 times out of 10, it is dangerous getting involved in a relationship and/or marriage when finances and/or housing difficulties are afoot. Also rule no.1: A man must be genuinely interested in getting to know me; not my body. My desire to love and be loved is based on a deep connection, not anything superficial.

I have low self-esteem but high self-worth which prevents me from being a victim of just wanting anyone to love me. And that is why I have no friends because most people in my life are fake. I'm better off alone than with people trying to hurt me at every chance they get while feigning they care and love me. I embrace being a lone wolf. It's peaceful.

Something else: I somehow got volunteered into a game where all I roll are snake eyes while the opponent cheats their way ahead awaiting the moment I lose (as if) in a game that is set up based on their own designs, playing on their turf/territory. It speaks volumes if they have to cheat their way through.

Today, I walked around for a little more than 2 hours so I guess I walked about 5-6 miles. I got lost and I just don't understand why some street intersections don't have road signs so I can identify which street it is. Then I went to the library and stayed until basically closing time. I almost read two graphic novels. The second one I didn't get a chance to finish but I like it a lot more than the first one. It's called, "The Handmaid's Tale" by Margaret Atwood.

Instead of just walking back to the closest bus stop; I just felt like walking, so I just walked much further up to a different bus stop.

Unfortunately, the library is closed on Sundays so I have to figure out what to do.

Lately, I can't seem to sleep.

I feel like the emotions within me are fighting with the controls.

It's kind of weird, but they resemble voice actors I know of (the good noodles, of course). They wear custodial jumpsuits and each are a different color.

It's weird. The abstract representation is conceptually off the rails and their reactions seem out of pocket.

It's a weird dream that bled out. And I really never saw the "Inside Out" series of films.

Ever feel like you need to step outside and LITERALLY touch the grass, so to speak?

Completely worn out.

Been out travelling for a wedding all weekend, and just got home. Had a good time, but now I need to wind down for a few days.

And finally got to check out the new locales of one of my favorite shops (in the city where the wedding was held) - they moved from a tiny and cramped two-floor (but not in a good way) place with shelves almost on top of another, to a much larger space where everything looks neater and it even seems like they've added to their selection of stuff, and I absolutely love it! Didn't get much time to check it out, but definitely going to the next time I'm there.

Had to almost run through the shop this time, and didn't find any books (didn't have too much hope there, though - but they are usually cheaper on the net, and newer books tend to take a while before they come out in the bookstores even where I have higher hopes of finding them - but I sometimes find some new gems in the shelves. Shelf-shopping isn't always as easy on the web if you're "just browsing").

Still having trouble sleeping.

Found out the rather sad news about some dolls I used to collect. Because of their fairy tale theme and Disney's dominance in those stories, Mattel is never going to revive the Ever After High doll line ever again, as long as Hasbro and Disney keep pumping money into the Descendants franchise.

Only reason they have the trademark going is to prevent theft of said trademark.

It's a bummer 😕. The fact that America runs on competition and that Mattel is erring on the side of caution after a judge said they could not wipe out MGA Entertainment's Bratz dolls with the abused discretion of a judge and now they can't bring back a IP in fear of failure. It seems the glove is on the other hand when it comes to a Mattel IP getting wiped out, as big as they are.

Of all ironies and coincidences, a big toy company can't fight back against their equally sized rival, in this case, Hasbro.

It does seem money does play a critical role, but doesn't help those who are über-competitive.

The Boy went into the big box store to get two things one day last week. The cashier and the person that checks receipts at the door asked "Is that all you're buying?" The Boy responded with "This is all I needed." The questions ended there.

I've had a weird lighting situation in my office; I decided to finally do something about it. I went to Target over the weekend to get a lamp, a bulb for whatever lamp I purchased and some pens. Nothing exciting or worth talking about.

The cashier asked "Did you find what you were looking for, and then some?"I told her yes and that there are plenty of people walking around with a shopping problem so I don't need to contribute to the issue. She agreed, then almost immediately asked if I had a Target Circle card. I told her no ( I don't have one), she then went on to talk about how if I had one, I would know about all the sales, save 5% ( LMAO! That doesn't even cover sales tax) blah, blah, blah. Then I circled back to the spending issues and let her know that things like the Target Circle card is part of the equation to spending problems. I cut off when she started with the 'Yeah, but..."

In the case of the cashier at Target, the stupid circle card thing she has to do, it is part of her job. It is no different than walking into any other store and they start nagging about getting a credit card. I always tell them no, usually they don't argue. Cashiers at Kohl's love to argue with customers about this. I haven't been in one of their stores in almost 2 years because it.

None of this stuff was done in malice, but I do wonder what makes these people think these things are okay to do. They're not making a commission, so why they give a flying fig about how much or little a person buys is baffling. It has been a long time since I've dealt with this. The last time is when I used to go to Walmart occasionally. The cashier didn't like that the only thing I bought was a thing of fishing line. We had cats at the time who liked to climb the Christmas tree, so we used fishing line to tie the top of the tree to a hook in the ceiling. Anywho..

When I asked the cashier why he was asking and if he made a commission from my sale, he put on a grumpy face and told me "Nobody comes in here and just buys one thing!" I then reminded him that he could no longer say that as there are people that only walk into a store to "buy only one thing!". I never saw that cashier again. Maybe he left on his own, maybe he was fired for harassing people, who knows.

After all was said and done, my bank shut down my card after my adventure at Target because I tried to buy Reshade preset for a dollar, again. I don't owe them any money. The crap I bought at Target is already paid for via means of a credit on my card. The bank doesn't like the Ko-Fi website. They refuse to come out and just say so.

When I showed up at the bank yesterday asking what was the excuse for shutting down my card this time, they didn't have one because the card people don't work on Sunday. How ironic! When this happened about a month ago, the excuse was I was trying to buy something from somebody in the UK. Yesterday I was told repeatedly that cards are automatically shut off under specific situations. In a rebuttal I mentioned that I find it interesting that in cases of legit fraud, those charges are allowed to go through. However, if I'm sitting at home, minding my own business and want to buy something for a dollar, my card gets shut off. I was once again reminded that card people don't work on Sunday and that nothing could be done until Monday or today.

It must be the weather because I can't think of a excuse for any of this otherwise..

These approaches were outright rude. The *bleep* is wrong with buying one thing if you need only one thing? In this economy? I've never been asked anything like this in a shop, but I'd probably answer back something similar.

I sometimes go through shops and don't buy anything. Even that's perfectly fine. If you don't find what you're after, or anything else you want to get, then why buy extra stuff, or even anything at all?

The people working in a shop have absolutely no business snooping around in what I'm shopping (save for registering and getting payment), why I'm getting those particular things (one item or many), or any of the sort - unless I choose to tell them, for whatever reason. They can offer deals and inform me about whatever customer membership deals or whatever they have, but I have every right to decline, and I don't even need to listen to it (they always seem to find the worst moments, especially when you're in a hurry).

Shopping and spending issues is a very big problem, and these "offers" are made to sound like they are good deals, but in reality they often only make you buy stuff you don't need, wouldn't even have considered buying if they weren't on sale, or end up throwing away because you bought too much (especially bulk food deals - can be a bargain, but not if you just buy without a plan).

Still having trouble getting my sleep.

Still, have to keep an eye on any packages for my family. Should be here tomorrow and I have postal and delivery service duties to bring in packages and delivered foods.

I got wind of the doll poll results...between the Tiger and Cheetah...the Cheetah won. The doll poll results from a prior poll will be announced.

It is rude. If I really wanted to be a a-hole about it, I could call their corporate office ( s) and complain. I'm not at that point, yet.

Yesterday I called the bank. When I told them to turn my card back on because there was no fraud, I got "Oh, that was you?" in response to me wanting to spend a dollar. I didn't get into it with them.

This is the level American culture has sunk to. If you don't spend every dime you have, there must be something wrong with you. Credit card debt, spending addictions, ect... are nothing new, but ever since Covid, it is constant spending on steroids. It has become a expectation that when a person walks into Target or some other store, said person must leave with a overflowing cart of stuff, most of which they didn't need in to first place. It goes without saying that being able to purchase boatloads of stuff online with a click of a button hasn't helped this issue.

I budget every week. I don't mind being that freak that doesn't leave the store with a hoard of stuff that I don't need, but that doesn't make the lip service from cashiers any less annoying. People get mad at me when I talk about how I refuse to shop at places like Walmart. I used to, I got tired of being treated like shit, so I take my business elsewhere. Walmart doesn't miss me; it's all good.

If I have to go to Target again any time soon, I'll use self checkout.

As for the big box store, we're on a cash only basis there. The next time we go in there for a thing or two, they won't be allowed to question my son about why he's only buying two things. I'll go in with him and if they have something to say, they can say it to me and I'll deal with them. He needs to deal with this BS anyway, so what better time to learn than being questioned for no reason in real time.

Was at the doctor. She gave me new medication for my PCOS. I eventually got a Coca-Cola Slurpee.

The Slurpee was a first in a long while, because every time for the past couple of years, Coca-Cola Slurpees wouldn't be available because the machine was broken.

Today was nerve-wracking because I am worried about a number of things that scare adults. I won't go into the spiral, but to be honest, I wasn't one for having to be a functioning adult during this year. I wish I had another chance to goof off.

Finally, after much waiting, I'm booked in for my cataract operation. I was beginning to think they'd forgotten about me, but today they phoned me to arrange an appointment.

I have been feeling pretty low lately because of my eyesight. I haven't been able to take pleasure in anything, not my books, not my garden, or the the sims. I've had to force myself to work on my story project, it depresses me so much, now that I've got TS3 performing and looking the way I've always wanted, that I can't see it at its best, Well, hopefully, I soon will.

I will need two operations The first to remove a cataract from my right eye. That is the worse one, I cannot read even large print through that fog. The other eye is also developing a cataract but, more seriously, my vision is distorted due to a thickening of one of the layers of the retina. It causes straight lines to appear all wiggly, and text looks like it has been typed on a very old and tired typewriter. That will call for a more difficult operation. But quite frankly, I would gladly wear a patch over that eye, so long as I could see alright with the other.

I'm a bit nervous about it, actually. I have to keep reminding myself that I had two operations on my eyes when I was five years old and I wasn't a bit scared. And medical science has progressed a bit since then, or so I'm fold. Anyways, wish me luck!

Good luck @Elynda I hope it all goes well and that recovery is quick and pain-free! I hope you'll be enjoying your sims again very soon.

Work, then movie night with a buddy. We were going to watch Fly Me to the Moon, but my friend rented the wrong Johannason movie so we watched Vicky Christina Barcelona instead, which is about two women who go to Barcelona and are seduced (seperately) by a painter who also has a crazy ex-wife who Johannson's character briefly gets in a poly relationship with. Fun enough movie, mostly for SJ.

I wanna complain at my actual manager so much! But that would be silly cos I haven't found a job worth switching to yet and what if there are c o n s e q u e n c e s

Pancakes were an option for lunch though