Some unsolicited advice. I don't guarantee that it will work, but it should.

Whatever device you are doom scrolling on, clear all cache files. Doing this will also log you out of any websites you may be perpetually logged into, but by clearing all cache files regularly it should remove any website cookies and any other junk websites leave behind so you can stay out of what I called "algorithm loops".

I do this for all of my internet-connected devices. For my PC not only do I use extensions to automatically clear caches and crap, I also use Revo Uninstaller as a crap remover and for the stuff that gets to system file level, I use Bleach Bit once a week. My tablet is a glorified EReader so I don't scroll on there and if and when I use my phone, I'm using it to watch a Youtube video from a channel I have bookmarked. I don't log in to watch as I don't give a flying fig about comments, but I still clear out any shiz Google left behind.

You know what's amazing about life with Love, is that you always bounce back from all the hardships in your life and can have true peace and tranquility with the ability to keep moving forward.

However on the opposite end of that, those who choose Hate never bounce back from their hardships and are pretty much on their own in the world they so love and fought tooth and nail to create a life that in the end means nothing.

What was it all for? Everything worldly is ephemeral. It all goes poof....

The way we enter the world is the same way when we exit; only our acts follow.

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Oh yeah, so my psych eval went horrible because the person I went to see didn't listen at all, told me I had no Autism and kept trying to prescribe medicine that I did not need nor want. You're not going to change my brain chemistry with all that junk but I will take medicine if I need it but I don't and I know myself better than someone who just met me and knows not much and all the intricacies of my life and experiences. He didn't even ask barely anything Autism related either...what a disappointment. That was the main reason for it all to me, besides OCD/Staring OCD.

But I will keep looking...sure an official diagnosis could help or hurt me depending but honestly without the diagnosis some people already pick up on my difference and treat me bad because misery loves company but I am not a miserable person so go sit in your dark, dank lonely corner and face the wall by yourself. I am having a joyous time over here in the light with all the good, positive vibes. Though of course I am human so I am not happy all the time and it is healthy as I do allow myself to acknowledge and process all of my emotions.

Also the woman who said it definitely seems like I have Autism since what I told her is basically me mimicking because I have a self awareness of the social norms but constantly having questions of whether I'm following it or not and having anxiety or social anxiety over it. So yes, mimicry is something that is common with those with Autism and I notice it in myself but I suppose something I have not really paid too much attention to as in self analysis of why I do the things I do. Well, now I pay more attention and notice how much I mimic, especially when it comes to new experiences, situations, places, etc which tends to give me a lot of anxiety.

There's something else I notice I start doing more often every now and then when I either get overwhelmed with joy or anxiety or stress is some kind of audio jingle that I seem to mostly remember during the moment. I think it's called an auditory stim. I also talk out loud more often because sometimes I want to hear my voice than think inwards so I suppose that too may be an auditory stim.

Like a butterfly I am attracted to colors and the first thing I ran to was some kind of colorful toy? that was a string with these colorful fluff balls that could move along the string with beads. I didn't even think of how others would perceive me nor did I care in the moment and it felt so freeing since I tend to be high-masking. That was in Tai Chi and sure enough I thoroughly enjoyed that class and felt so relaxed to the point of feeling sleepy. All those swaying movements was really up my alley, lol. It's no wonder I started feeling sleepy as rocking back and forth relaxes me and helps me fall asleep a lot faster.

Speaking of colors, I tend to be attracted to some children's toys and books though I don't usually engage because I'm high-masking. But slowly but surely I'm learning to unmask. I always have positive memories of my childhood when seeing certain toys and books. I like Dr. Seuss, The Bernstein Bears, Where's Waldo, those children's textile books, pop-up books, flip books, etc. I still have a fond memory of my mother buying me a new Dr. Suess book called Green Eggs and Ham and then the next morning she made green eggs and ham. I remember getting so overexcited my mother was like oh my goodness calm down girl, lol.

I also like watching children shows like Blue's Clues, Doc McStuffins, Bluey, Sesame Street (Although I haven't watched that in years and do miss Elmo's World which was my favorite.), Dora the Explorer, etc.

I cannot afford a plushie to cuddle and sleep with which is a comfort for me. I read that some Autistic people like the weight of a weighted blanket or a bunch of plushies or something and I do notice I find comfort in that too when I had a stuffed bear with a colorful scarf and artist's hat my mother won for me at the claw machine I named Artie.

On a different note:

I was just thinking of my adult ferret Pablo who passed away years ago, I think. He was a baby when I got him and I immediately noticed how easily he would get scared. Like when I accidentally dropped something on the floor he was the only one who got freaked out and ran underneath the desk. I coaxed him out but thought it was interesting that he was naturally on high alert compared to the other ferrets. I always felt like me and Pablo were somewhat similar in that aspect that our nervous systems are quite sensitive to external stimuli. The first time I took him outside I could tell his response also was different than the other ferrets.

He seemed overwhelmed but took a few steps away from me but then got scared and ran back to me, even standing on his hind legs and resting his front hands on my leg to signify to pick him up which I did. I thought it was both intriguing and sweet that he saw me as someone to trust to protect him and feels safe with. Eventually, he became more confident as I continued to take him outside, even to the point he left me and went into a cubby hole I couldn't get into but he was just relaxing and since I didn't always use a harness, good thing for the name training and rapport because when I called him he left and stood in front of me so I could take him back inside. I used to love to squeeze his big warm, squishy belly on the sides and thinking back was sensory input for me.

I'm certainly getting to that point in my life where "The Subtle Art of Not Giving A F*ck" is more a chapter title than a whole book. That and my proclamation to others "No, sir! Not getting outta this chair!" Not even if I was dropkicked over the horizon by a titan of some nature.

I had a terrible night last night. My parents didn't wake me up for dinner and I was absolutely angry that I just didn't leave my room, lest I snapped at them.

Only good news so far, as far as finances, is my claims with the bank are all closed and credited, so that's a win, considering financial woes are a part of mental health issue triggers, amongst other issues pertaining to mental health quality.

Did grocery shopping. My mother and I worked out a few deals with groceries and my allowance, considering the fact that I was fatigued from the virus I caught from my father. I found nearly everything on the list I made.

Still, I have promises to uphold as part of a household regulation: All debts must be accounted for in the event it's required for something. (Translation: If you owe me anything, you will pay it back.)

Marie Kondo is back in my life with her one liner of "Keep like things with like things" rolling around in my head. It has been one of those days of making a mess, clean up mess then make another another mess.

The bedroom closet and living room closet have been driving me nuts of months at this point. Everything in both closets are used, but the closet in the living room turned into a "I don't want to go downstairs, so I'll put stuff here" and the bedroom closet just needed to have something taken from it and moved elsewhere.

A few examples:

The ironing board which is hardly ever used was in the living room closet. It is a antique and it's heavy The iron which should be kept at near the ironing board was in the bathroom closet. The upstairs bathroom in tiny; nobody is going to iron anything in there.

Potting soil for houseplants doesn't need to be upstairs. Yes I use it, but not all the time. Meanwhile the vacuum cleaner which I use almost daily was shoved in a corner instead of in the closet.

We had one air conditioner in the living room closet and another in the bedroom closet. Both AC units are small and could be and are now sharing the same closet. There was no need to keep them in separate closets.

All of could have been dealt with when I was annoyed with it many moons ago. It took less than a hour and everything now has a proper home. Insanity for no reason other than I didn't feel like dealing with it. Since I'm in one of those moods, I ordered a toiletry bag that somebody would use to travel with from LL Bean to put Nintendo Switch stuff in as Nintendo can kiss my ass. I wasn't willing to pay out the nose for a Switch case that sez Nintendo on it and can only hold the Switch. I wanted all the stuff ( HDMI cords, cables, controller, ect...) to be in one bag / case. Everything will be in one place and it won't get dusty.

All I had planned to do today was sit on my ass and read. I guess I'll do that later.

I called it this morning. I said it was going to be one of those weeks and sadly, I was right.

I've been on the phone with the electric / gas company after they double charged me for things like transmission fees. The state updates rates twice a year, so twice a year we get to pay more. Yippee!

Dingus had a doctors appointment. The receptionist called to tell me that his insurance card was 'invalid'. When asked why didn't he call the insurance company, I was told he told them to call me. Long story short, I got the info the doctors office wanted, but there is going to be a discussion about how if Dingus' arms are not broken, he can call the insurance company.

The vets office called. They are going to be short staffed this weekend, so they cancelled the appointment I made to bring the pigs in for nail trims. I called a different office who has seen Lincoln in the past 6 months, but they've never seen Cole, so I have to pay for a exam fee for him. The nail trim for Cole will be part of the exam.

I really want a greasy steak and cheese sub sandwich for dinner. I won't get one, but I want one. The last time I got one almost 2 years ago I was sick for two days. Take out is not worth the cost or feeling like shit for...

Working on a project for myself.

Probably would keep it somewhere safe.

It's kinda funny that I would be busy with a project, when I am busy with other things in life right now such as dish washing and brushing teeth.

Right now, I worry about my mom stealing my job away from me because I am still sick with some kind of cold. I know I have to rest, yet I must be responsible.

Hard part is the house is so cold in the kitchen where I live, because the way my father is acting is stereotypical (gets upset when energy is used)

I really don't want to freeze to death. (Being facetious\joking here. The cold is bitter this year.)

Today, I received 4 wallets and a heart-shaped coin purse 👛. I have them in mind for a project I need to carry coin or cash.

In my quest to finish the Living Pokédex Project through my games on the Switch, 3DS, DS and GBA (via transfers via dongle method on DS, wireless on 3DS and through Pokemon Bank\Transfer to HOME) and Pokémon GO, with the assistance of my Pokémon HOME apps for my phone and Switch, not only did I get a Galarian Farfetch'd...

But a Level 20 Lugia from a Pokémon GO player!

Those are rare! I mean, I have 2 Mew from a promotional controller\giveaway item for Pokémon Let's Go! Pikachu\Eevee and I also recently gave one of my Furfrou a Debutante cut via form change in Pokémon GO...still, a legendary from a Wonder Trade along with Galarian Farfetch'd and Gallade! It's been a lucky evening for me.

Since Temu spam has been like a plague around here for the past few days, I'll counter that with a reason people shouldn't order from Temu. The following is not from the hoarder, but a hoarder in the making. Most junk that comes from Temu is trash that is full of lead and other nasty things, but there is such thing as organized hoarding as like what so-called 'beauty gurus' show on Tik-Tok. It's still a collection of unneeded and or unnecessary stuff.

DIRTY USED SWEATER FROM TEMU? MASSIVE TEMU HAUL PART 1 of 2 PLUS some reviews

https://youtu.be/fYx90eopQvc?feature=shared&t=1501

Nothing sez value like receiving a sweater that is already iffy in color at least on camera that has a big ol' stain on it. I'm sure billionaires are walking around looking like that....

EDIT: The bag I ordered to put my Switch and related crap in showed up; my idea worked. Everything was wiped down and put away.

The following is total brain rot. If you want context, go for it.

Apparently there is a battle going on between a big You Tuber ( Asmongold) and Elon The Man Child. Asmon is not much better when it comes to being a man child so the virtual playing field is level here. Asmon has made million of dollars over his career while on YT and yet he brags about how disgusting his house is and how he has to chew like a rat because all of his back teeth rotted out of his head. All of this is public info... Anywho, I'm going to use cringe phrase of let the following be a "teaching moment".

Elon Musk just leaked our DMs..

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bwu8IYQIG9E

DM, PMs... whatever are not private on any website. They sit on a server and can be used against you. People might not like what you have to say and call you trash and other names, but keeping things out in 'sunlight' prevents problems like this. If there is a thought that crosses your mind that might be sketchy, go write it in a journal or something.

People ( including Asmon) continually bitch and complain about Elon and yet, Asmon continues to remain chained to Twitter. Such a good, little faithful minion.

Elon has a drug problem. This is not shade, nor am I picking on him about this, but he really needs some therapy and to deal with his issues. He's also a narcissist, so to him, anybody that does not kiss his ass and yes him to death is a peasant. He will spout bullshit all day long whether it is true or not and wait for his many boot lickers to show up and defend him. Asmon also has many boot lickers, yes men that refuse to tell him to grow up, ect...

At the end of the day, why would anybody trust these kinds of people with so-called 'private messages'? Elon bans people that block him on Twitter. Just sayin'...

Currently, I'm working on digitally remastering/restoring an old film from 1960. I borrowed the VHS from my grandparents' house. The next day, I transferred it to a DVD and then onto my laptop, but neither the video nor the audio are in good condition.

I’m doing all of this because I want to improve my video and audio editing skills. I also want to be able to watch it on any device because the film is worth watching.

P.S. - I found this film uploaded on YouTube, but it was only upscaled to 1080p (and that's it, nothing more).

Watching 100 Chinese Tik Toks to see if it’s better than the American one

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4B419pDra1U

I'm taking a little break from the terrible book called The Gifted School. It is 464 pages too long.

As for the headline in the screenshot, yeah, no.



https://www.techspot.com/news/10639...an-but-app.html

All the Chinese BS aside, where are all the people beating each other up over Stanley Cups? How about all the food waste like putting a turkey in a toilet? Where's all the drop shipping from questionable websites? Why are people flocking to RedNote which is not even the Chinese version of TikTok?

I'm sure sure people of the US TikTok have changed their ways and are now going to be good students and learn Mandarin instead of wanting to watch bogus Sephora hauls.

We got hit with snow yesterday.

Not in a mood to fight. I still have laundry and dishes as my chores

So far, I reached 503 Pokémon in the Living Pokédex Project.

Still working as a porter, even after the New Year started.

I already have my EA app and it's up to date. Said that I have not played The Sims 4 since September 30th, 2024...yeah, that was when I took up the porter job while my parents worked during the holiday season.

So far with the Living Pokédex Project, I am up to 548 and counting, and that's not even including variants by region and forms.

As for today, I got some mail coming my way today. I am waiting on some Amazon packages and I received a 12 pack of tallboy of low sugar sodas.

I am currently working with my parents to switch to different drinks as I am losing weight alongside them this year. My parents are helping me titrate off of sugar. I have some carb based addictions.

It has been a day; nothing exciting.

Sterling and the pigs had their cages cleaned.

I washed two of my pillows. I can't cram all 4 of them into the washing machine. The other two will get washed tomorrow.

I've vacuumed which lead to taking the vacuum cleaner apart as it isn't doing what it should be. Yeah it picks stuff up, but it doesn't have the suction it did when it was new.

The vacuum I have has two filters. I have tried to order replacements from Shark, they canceled my order. When asked why, they refused to give me a reason. Since I bought the vacuum cleaner at Home Depot, it would make sense they would have replacement filters. Nope! I went on Target's website as Start Page said they carry them. Nope! Instead Target wants me to buy a new vacuum cleaner.

Who has replacement filters? If you thought Amazon, you'd be correct. So I spend a couple hundred on a new vacuum cleaner because of POS companies or I spend $18.00 for a 3 pack of filters with another POS company. The first option isn't a option; I'm on a no buy year. No extra crap is coming in the house for 2025. I guess if I want to vacuum and not spend a lot of time doing it, I'm going to have to suck it up and deal with Amazon.

This very same problem happens with things like air purifiers. You can find replacement filters for about 6 months after purchase, but once the store decides to carry the newest version of the same thing, you can't find filters, anywhere.

I went to Target looking for replacement ink cartridges for the printer I bought from Target less than a year ago. Target has decided they don't want to carry Canon printers any more, so I had to hunt down replacement cartridges. In the end it is actually cheaper just to buy a new printer depending on the printer, but what the hell.

This shizz pisses me off. Companies do this all the name of pushing the new shiny things that do the same exact thing as the previous model that is less than a year old.

I went for a checkup, the first medical checkup in years I think. Everything seems okay and waiting for my blood test results as a routine thing. My temperature was 100°F and I'm pretty sure that's a little high for me as I do remember my normal temperature is usually around 98.6°F. Nothing alarming as I never had my wisdom teeth removed and the teeth are still coming in so I get headaches, fevers, migraines, etc related to that. My blood pressure was normal but the first time I went to ER for frostbite my BP was high, though I had just ate two Wawa sandwiches I was offered the day I arrived at the shelter and asked if I wanted a cup of coffee, therefore it was either the meal or the caffeine or both that spiked my BP. Especially not having eaten or hydrated enough and all of a sudden now I have food and drink and now my body is working overtime. Or so that is my educated guess. I uh...ate at the hospital too since they offered and it was delicious. Yeah sure some complain about hospital food but from where I came from nearly starving to death the food was good.

I have a cold or actually what I known to be a touch of the flu perhaps. Almost everyone if not everyone is sick and some are passing their germs around because apparently not everyone knows the proper etiquette to cough and squeeze in the bend of your elbow, not your hand where then you go to touch door knobs and everything thus spreading the germs around for someone to touch an infected area and go rub their eye or something. Then there are some who literally know they are sick and just cough everywhere in the open without any attempt to cover their mouth. Some don't even use hand sanitizer and some don't even wash their hands after using the restroom. But it is what it is concerning my circumstances. Unfortunately for me when I get sick, it is worse for me because I have ear problems so I have to deal with both those things which is absolute misery. To help shorten the length and severity I tend to use Airborne which is something that works for me if I pay attention to the symptoms sooner than later. Though as a poor woman, well, I have no money for Airborne but good thing for some reason I bought it while I had the money and still have a few tablets left that is still good and has not expired yet. My poor nose, it's all dry, sore and now I have to use Vaseline to help heal from all the nose blowing and hard tissues.

It is so frustrating because I feel like Princess Jasmine when she gets upset at her father and the suitors lining up for her hand in marriage and says, "I am not a prize to be won!" Why...why am I getting all this male attention that I don't want nor care for and they all act exactly like that...like I'm a prize to be won. I see through it all because that is the gift I was given. It's funny because I used to think I didn't have a gift but the whole time didn't realize it came so intuitively to me that I had not really thought about it much.

So I have updated my places of where I can go to eat free food. So far the church and the men's shelter has really good food. My own shelter isn't bad but sometimes it is and sometimes we run out of food but I don't mind the frozen meals and we stay being out of bottled water and when we do get water it never lasts long...like toilet paper. I also found a place, the church, for free clothes and other necessities even female necessities and I'm like...this is perfect because I don't have enough money. I literally have coins, chump change. (Oh yeah, I forgot someone was kind enough to give me $50 so actually I have $49 plus change because I spent $1 on a prescription.) And again my shelter does sometimes get some donations of various things too but not all the time, so its good to know I have other local options for my survival/hygiene needs. Oh and there's even places to go for free laundry and showers, which I have done the laundry thing twice so far. The second time it was just my coat because a bird pooped on my coat hood...bullseye. Now I can say I have been pooped on by a bird by being at the wrong place at the wrong time. At least it was on my hood and not my hat or hair so it is what it is.

Oh yeah, and I'm pretty sure at least one of the men interested in me is a...um. Well let me put it this way, I am an adult with a youthful face and innocence to match and I could pass for a high schooler. Genetics as my mother didn't look her age and neither did my father as they both looked much younger than they actually were. Anyway it is truly disheartening and vile to know that there are people who seek out others with their perverted fetishes. And why do I make a claim that certain man likes...., because multiple reasons:

-When picking out a blanket, I chose what I chose because it reminded me of a Scottish tartan pattern but he kept referring to it as a school girl uniform which goes to show where his mind is

-In front of everyone he literally says, "I will 'buy' this CHILD right here." as I am walking past him and he raising his arm in the air and pointing down at me

-Keeps oversharing info I don't care about nor what to know like his living situation or what his ex-wife name was

-I'm walking and then he just joins me without my permission, I'm trying to eat a banana and it wasn't ripe yet and he says, "Now you know that banana is not ripe yet. 'He' ain't ready." WTH! Well that stunned me and I just turned around and walked the opposite direction and threw the banana in the trash.

What is wrong with these people!? Oh, we're in the last generation since 1948 when Israel became its own nation. And it will get worse as foretold. The world has gone mad! No literally, I'm surrounded by people in that network. I see through it. Where my people at? We getting down to the 144,000 already now. Prove yourself worthy before its too late.

Oh and I was told I wouldn't get a recommendation or referral to a psychologist to find out about an Autism diagnosis. You know what? It's absolutely fine. Unless I'm trying to go for disability which I'm not, because I don't have a disability, it doesn't matter at all.

Had therapy today. Was drained afterwards.

Either way, working on the shopping list for February.

I cleaned up the kitchen after my parents had breakfast. Home cooking makes a lot of dishes.

How To Steal Back Happiness In Today's World

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wO2zso1Kfxc

It is a Dr.K kind of day. My brain has been noisy all week.

For those that don't know, Dr.K is a licensed, practicing psychiatrist. He comes from a place of having a video game addiction which he talks about, all the time. The video that is linked starts with talking about how things do not make a person happy. I didn't watch for this reason.

I've been trying to figure out why I can't stand nor play my game these days. It runs fine, there are no issues to speak of, but I play for 5 minutes and I'm done. I still don't know the answer. It will come to me when I stop thinking about it.

Mostly alright today. Got a twitchy eyebrow, though (you know how sometimes an eyelid gets a bit twitchy? Double that and send it around to weird places. The eyebrow is almost more unconfortable than a twithcy eyelid...).

Could be lack of sleep.

I forgot to mention about the community center on certain days has free lunches (the last time I was there I ate a hoagie, potato chips, peach fruit cup, mac and cheese, Tastykake krimpet with butterscotch icing which I saved and still have and bottled water), gives out food bags on certain days and in the mornings has free coffee and snacks. I just came from there getting a free shower and then sat to eat a glazed infinity-shaped donut with some coffee. It cannot be helped but the 30 minute time limit is troublesome for me, it's more than enough time but not enough time also for my hair. I have various different hair textures which is usually typical for some people; wavy, curly and coily and I noticed some hair is even near straight if not straight. Anyway, my hair type(s) is not something that I can do in a hurry so I either have to focus on body or hair. I contemplate cutting my hair again super short around 2-3 inches I suppose and then I don't have to focus on my hair nowhere near as much when it's at its longest since I cannot get as in-depth to take care of it as I want to.

Now I'm at the library because of course I don't have wi-fi, a data service plan any more because I'm poor but trying to use as much resources available to me. Well, wait...the library does have a hot spot to borrow I think but I've been avoiding that and just using free wi-fi locations. So far I have been fine without it.

I remember someone at the shelter saying this experience at being at the shelter is like being in school. Well school was never my favorite time during my school age years so I knew exactly how to proceed...the same as before...stay to myself, mind my own business, there are no such things as friends in most cases, sit back, observe and discern. Honestly, my school life taught me so much about people that that is my main takeaway than anything else which didn't ever seem useful at all in my life thus far. Sometimes I wonder if my mother allowed me to be homeschooled then would I have had more focus on my interests and future? But then again if it weren't for my mother telling me no then I wouldn't have gained the crucial and valuable information about people. It helped shaped me into the person I am...a lone wolf by choice. I am happy and at peace when I am alone. Unless there's another person who is on the same page as me, but otherwise that is extremely rare so I choose to be alone.

You know the great thing is that even as a young toddler around 3 years old I guess, I remember my mother leaving me on my own in my room with the door ajar checking up on me periodically where I would go from book to book while she cleaned the house. I entertained myself independently and wasn't one to constantly seek attention and it's good my mother let me just do my own thing which enforced my love of independence and alone time. Then when she was done cleaning she would sometimes ask me if I wanted to go to the park or we might watch tv or go out or something. One of many core memories is her sitting me on her lap facing her while she sat on the swing swinging. I remember feeling the comfort of the rhythm of her heartbeat, her warm breath breathing on me with each exhale, the wind generated from the back and forth motion of the swing. The feeling of safety, comfort, love and nurture. Her asking and telling me if I'm falling asleep she's going to stop because she allowed me to hold on to her while she had two hands on the swing. I wasn't falling asleep but just quietly enjoying this moment with my mother. Eventually, she said I'm too quiet, stopped and we left to go back home but it was more than enough of a special bonding moment.

In fact, my mother trusted me in such a way that surprises me thinking back but she was always spot on knowing and understanding my capabilities. For example, 2-3 years old my parents bought me a pink Barbie motorized car to drive. My mother told me that I drive from point A to point B and come right back. I am not allowed pass a certain point and she showed me and then told me to go while she followed behind without saying anything to make sure I understood. I did understand and she let me drive my pink Barbie car all by myself without her supervision except the periodically checking up on me. I had to come back before it got dark or she came to get me if we had to go somewhere before then. Funny, as a middle-schooler I had to be back before dark too, lol. My mom gave me so much freedom but then again it also was a different time back then too. A lot of parents gave their young children a lot of freedom. But maybe I had a head start.

Oh yeah, I also forgot to mention another reason I make a claim that that certain man is corrupted is when I came out the church someone called that man a p...and everything else confirmed that.

I mostly walk everywhere even if it's a hour or so away though I'm a slow walker. The public transportation has free fare for low income individuals living in a certain city but I hope they can expand that program to the sheltered homeless whether low-income or no-income so it makes it easy to get around and also during extreme weather temperatures and/or elements. I try not to walk too much but I'm hardheaded because I enjoy my freedom to just go if I don't want to stay at the shelter all day when they do allow us to stay in because of bad weather. My stubbornness doesn't help at all still recovering from being frostbitten and also my joints in my fingers get stiff from the frigid cold. I have gloves but the issue is wiping my runny nose in which I take off my gloves to do and I no longer try to eat snacks while walking and I need to pay attention and not grab a free coffee to take with me because even with gloves my hands freeze anyway. I need those water-proof type gloves not cloth ones. But I am working with what I have. Maybe I can find some water-proof and wind-proof gloves for free. Yes, if I can get it for free why not? I am not ashamed of being poor. The first time actually, my whole life I've always been well taken care of...never rich but living comfortably. I would say upper middle-class if I had to take an educated guess. As long as my basic needs are met, I'm good. And I enjoy having entertainment related to my hobby/interest. And to think I was going to leave it behind when I got evicted but that gentle nudge kept directing me to it then I later recognized that happened to me before but the context was different before. He always helps and looking out for me. Now I know to make sure to pay attention to the help certain people give and accept it because it's from Him using that person.

I'm poor and lost everything, plus lost more, plus in debt and the world against as it should be or else I'm not living my life right. My own father turned against me and actually it's not surprising about brother. For awhile I have suspected that my own so-called family has something to do with why I am suspiciously being targeted by that sick, twisted underground community. You know the whole P. Diddy fiasco. The thing is: It's not just well-known people but it's literally everyday people. The sickness has spread like a fire around the world for a very long time. It's people in your family, it's people who you think are friends, it's people who can be anyone.

But it's going to be okay, better than okay. In the end, evil loses. End of story.

Faith without fear and patience.

I am so happy and joyful because there is no greater love. No matter the circumstances I will always find true happiness and joy despite the hardships. I am grateful for everything.

Something's banging against the side of the house.

Otherwise, I am busy working on my shopping list for next week.

Just waiting for a package of ramen bricks as I am busy working with ramen toppings. I also found an even lower sugar substitute for my addiction to sodas and sparkling waters (the titration involves substitutions, so it's a bit strange)

I may even try a new multivitamin.

I am currently working on looking into items worth the time.

Another week of chores finished, a package should be delivered today, pay day next week. Things are looking good for me.

My mom was sent home due to lack of work at her warehouse.

So, I have to be on my toes for anything she asks of me.

For months even, years I was planning to upgrade my laptop's ram because 8GB are not enought for any of todays applications to run smoothly, so yesterday I ordered a pair of 2 RAM sticks 16GB each. I'm also planning to change the CPU but since its soldered to the motherboard I'll stick with the current one.

Can 2025 be the year people stop yapping about how they are getting 'free stuff' via points with credit cards? Credit card debt is almost 18 trillion dollars in the US.

https://www.newyorkfed.org/microeconomics/hhdc

What started this thought rolling around in my head is I finished my Jan savings challenge. I'm not spending the money saved. It is being used to bulk up things like the pet sinking fund as Chica has to go in in Feb to have her pheno level checked. That bill is around $400.00. As I was moving money around, I had You Tube on and the following video started playing. I don't know this person and I'm sure she's lovely, but she's one of far too many that think they are beating the banks.

Revealing the Truth: Our Shocking Credit Card Debt

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G_pU4LSy8RM

This yap session starts with talking about how this person and her hubby take 'free trips' because of their points on their card. They carry a balance of almost $14,000. Nope. The actual balance is just over $700.00, but this doesn't change the point. The interest rate on a Capitol One Venture card is as follows:



https://wallethub.com/answers/cc/ca...325-2140721754/

So they have this big balance on a card that they don't pay off every month and are paying anywhere from 20-30% ( yes I'm rounding up) interest while calling their trips and fun "free". What part of 20-30% interest that is paid monthly is free? No, that 'free entertainment' is not free! On the contrary, it is really frickin' expensive when there is a rolling balance from one month to the next.

I stopped watching the video after this because... yeah, no. Credit card companies should be forced to spell out the actual math in bold, red print across every single statement.