So, today is the last day before summer officially ends here in my neck of the woods.

Did some downsizing and I am pleased with the results. I got rid of a purse, a backpack, a crossbody bag and a SANWA Blu-Ray Disc wallet.(It prevents scratching the Blu-Rays with their patented fabric lining.)

I even plan on having black bean and corn quesadillas. Mix the adobo in and it should be a great idea.

It is Monday. Another week of a company telling me "You have to {fill in the blank} then have somebody from within the same company tell me that the thing I was told to do and did doesn't matter as I still won't be able to {fill in the blank}.

The search for a new stain color for house continues as the color we used when the house was re-shingled is no longer available. I could get the color matched with paint, but I'm not painting the house. I have enough problems with exterior paint bubbling and peeling in areas where a surface gets too hot during the summer. A problem that needs to be discussed with our contractor at some point.

EDIT: Sherwin Williams to the rescue. They were able to color match the color stain used on the house so we don't have to do the whole thing over again. They also told us how to fix a problem area where stain was peeling.

Yesterday I went to go see Honey Don't! because I thought according to the trailer I watched it was supposed to be about her solving some murder cases but all it ended up being about was same-sex relationships, hypocrites and never really solving any of the cases handed to her thus leaving so many loose ends. What even was the point of the plot? Nothing barely made any sense and I couldn't even follow the storyline because it was all over the place and unfinished. The ending just proved what the movie really was about. Like 85% of the movie was about Honey's sex life...what false advertisement of the trailer and where the focus truly lied.

Now Honey Don't! takes the prize of worst movie thus far than Jurassic World: Rebirth because it's like that game I bought on Steam years ago called "Gone Home" and based on the trailer and genre description it seemingly was going to be about some horror and finding out what happens to the missing persons who weren't missing after all and ended up being about some runaway teen same-sex relationship or something like that. False advertisement! Just say what's it's really about so I don't have to waste time and money on something I could care less about. There's so many ways to write amazing characters who are also into the same gender and there are ways to write horrible characters who makes their sexuality and sexual orientation their whole identity. In a world where sexuality runs rampant like it's normal just adds more fuel to the flames. I don't care for it.

I wanted to watch a good detective story with amazing cases to solve but that's not what I got at all. I now know that I want to explore movies and other types of media like books/comic books, etc within that genre and Noir also seems something I'll be fascinated with. I really loved the whole vibe in The Naked Gun. I wish I would have fell asleep on Honey Don't! instead of The Naked Gun. In fact, I should have just counted my loss and just walked out of the theater but since it wasn't my money I used, I felt obligated to watch until the end and at least it confirmed my disdain for the movie from start to finish.

However, that's not to say I cannot sometimes appreciate that aspect, a character's sexuality/sensual nature, when done right. I didn't know I would like Bayonetta, though she is confident and comfortable flaunting her sensuous nature, there is so much more to her.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ngZoq1RApqk

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Since I caught a sale still going on, I decided to get two more Squishable's. One of them, is a an adorable pastel rainbow clouds and the other is another cupcake but a different face, colors, look and with a cherry on top. I originally was only going to get the rainbow clouds but the cashier said we're having a buy one get another 50% off sale and although I already knew that it's like her saying that gave me permission to just go and get it. Hey, what's the point of working and making money and I can't enjoy a little here and there? So last night I slept with all 3 plushies, lol. It felt comforting.

But seriously, I think I need to ban myself from going into Squishable store as I don't really have any more space to even store these adoracute plushies. I got a little bit of my collecting nature satisfied. For now that's enough, I think.

Because nine times out of ten its unfortunately not a person in need. And also the whole thing was pretty suspicious so well done on not getting scammed.


So many things on my to do list today, so many detours. Pretty suprised that everything got done on time.

I had catalogued 200 DVDs into a collection of boxes and an additional 80 CDs into boxes since I started a cleanup campaign with my parents to prepare the house for the event of when my grandfather passes. (The house I'm in is being rented to us and our washing machine is out of commission. He's technically the landlord.) 😕

For now, I have to rest as I caught a cold and I am so wiped out from lifting, repetitive motions, and sitting on an otherwise hard floor.

I also donated old plushies I no longer have a use for, as well as old luggage. The only luggage I kept from the most recent round of possible donations was a green 60L duffel bag that could fold into itself. I have a matching orange 60L duffel bag that also folds into itself.

My father also got rid of his old plastic bag from his old warehouse job from a while back, pre-Covid.

So today was a day of cleanup. But when I fell asleep, I slept hard.

Lovely spam taking over the Off Topic Section, I see.

Anyway, I called it. I said it was going to be one of those weeks and it is turning into one of those weeks.

The thing I was being cryptic about was because somebody didn't do their job. After talking to somebody that wants to do their job, I can now do the thing I wanted to do. Huzzah! People do their job and it doesn't piss off other people. Imagine that.

This morning I had a present waiting for me in my inbox. It was a estimate from the contractor I mentioned months ago about doing the jobs around the house that were done a couple of weeks ago by somebody else. Not only did the first contractor blow me off for months, but then they wanted to charge me $500.00 more.

I let them know that the job has been done and thanked for blowing me off. They saved me money by doing so and I found a new contractor that I like.

I'm sick with a bad cold. I'm coughing and dealing with internal pain in my chest.

I watched The Roses in theaters and I liked it as I do actually enjoy slice of life type of storylines which isn't surprising as I used to enjoy TS/TS2/TS3 whether I created the stories or allowed the A.I. to mostly take control with minimal intervention. I would still enjoy TS/TS2/TS3 but I don't have TS/TS2 on Steam yet and I suppose my laptop can handle it somewhat. As for TS3 this laptop can handle just the base game which is all I have on Steam but not great performance from what I had known. Maybe someday and I'll be able to get lost in my creativity of starting all over. Or I don't know what life has in store for me.

Oh, I got those two scents I enjoy from Body Fantasy which are Vanilla and Japanese Cherry Blossom that smell delightful and are actually affordable. The vanilla I spray on my birthday cupcake plushie which lasts a few days but I haven't really counted how many, maybe three or four tops. I just found out other stores that sell other fragrances that I had not tried before and now I am curious and hope to find more scents I am fond of. On a similar note, when I went to the mall I went to Bath & Body (I think that's what that store is called) and tried the Try Me scents. I wasn't initially impressed at all, but after leaving having sprayed my wrist/arm with various different scents started smelling that and smelled pleasant but then I couldn't identify which scent, lol.

The problem for me is that all I smell is alcohol mostly but after it dries then I can smell the whole scent. Though some scents I've smelled so many times before from somewhere and I was not impressed with those ones. But I think I want to try that Marshmellow scent again...I think it was Marshmellow Pumpkin or something, I don't remember.

Oh yeah one of the store employee's complimented my Squishable's on my backpack and said she always walk pass that store but never goes in. I told her I think she would like it. I mean there's all kinds of plushie's and themes so I'm thinking something has got to spark an interest. I also liked her makeup and hair, her whole style overall and I should have complimented her but I got distracted by the Squishable conversation. Maybe next time if I see her again. I think her style was Emo?

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Last night I was late to dinner but I didn't think I was that late and no one was seemingly there so instead of waiting around I walked to Walmart to buy yet another umbrella (my 3rd one of the same brand because I do not know where to buy a decent quality one in-person that isn't far) because the one I had the mechanism that opens/closes the umbrella was defective but I made it work as best I could until that handle just forcibly popped out across the whole room. Good thing most of everyone was gone by then so it didn't hit anyone. Now I contemplate user error or I keep getting defective umbrellas or the brand is just not good. It's a $17 dollar 2-person umbrella...and how could it be user error as I am holding it normally or sometimes tilted on my shoulder and I try not to twirl it around.

I have another umbrella given to me that I really like that's 1-person but when I walk long distances when it pours down rain, it is not enough to keep shoes and backpack from getting drenched. And when the wind comes along the umbrella barely matters because the wind just carries the rainwater under the umbrella and the bottom of my pants and shoes/socks gets soaked. Like nature saying, well "You said you loved the sensory input of rain and wind so there you go...real life edition." And while I do enjoy it, it's not so simple to change when I want or need to. Reminds me of my mother though because when it would pour down rain, she would say, "Let's go outside." And I'm like, "We would get so soaked!" Yeah that was the point though and it was something not only fun, soothing and invigorating about it all, we also could dry off and change our clothes...not really an option at the shelter though I suppose it depends on who the monitor is. Even the bad ones are they really that cruel?

Okay so back to point. I didn't want to wait in the morning to get the 2-person umbrella and while I was in the vicinity I went to McDonald's to eat but did take out. I ate my fries and drank most of my soda but couldn't really eat the Big Mac while also holding an umbrella because it was raining last night. By the time I walked back it was past curfew and some monitors typically say I don't care if it's 8:01 pm if you're late then you are not allowed in. Yeah sure, let's not allow a homeless woman with nowhere to go/sleep to fend for herself because it's past curfew. Though I don't think anyone should get turned away who doesn't have anywhere else to go.

What's the point of a shelter? Sometimes I cannot follow every single rule all the time for whatever reason. I was hungry and I wanted that 2-person umbrella now rather than later and of course it rained this morning which I was so grateful I got the umbrella sooner. I was allowed back in without question but I had not finished my Big Mac yet so I went to the cafeteria to finish it but then was scolded that I know I am not supposed to eat there and she proceeded to turn off the lights and start locking the door. I ended up finishing the rest of my meal in the hallway.

This is what I mean when some people freak out over, "I'm going to get in trouble for this!" instead of choosing compassion over getting penalized or fired they choose to be mean. I would get in trouble a lot and/or fired because I cannot treat people like that. Some monitors don't stress over it but that doesn't mean they don't get in trouble for it though. I'm not trying to get special treatment, I am just trying to survive. These rules don't benefit the poor and downtrodden and the only way it benefits the higher-ups is if they enjoy the power and control of those with less-than. *Actually I do get in trouble on my job for choosing compassion over rules. Unfortunately some do take advantage of this and use my kindness as a weakness.

This morning even with the 2-person umbrella my shoes and socks still got wet from the puddles and kicking up water, lol. Clothe shoes are cute but so annoying! I saw Sketchers at the mall in Macy's so maybe next time I will invest in a water-resistant/proof pair hopefully. Toss the old shoes away because I don't have the space to keep all these sneakers or I can wash them and if they are still in good condition can donate them which is what I usually do when I sort through stuff I no longer want or want less to downsize.

Feeling better. I felt like death warmed over one day, and after an aggressive regimen of OTC Medicine and distractions, I got better.

Had a chance to play with my Switch 2 and bought Sonic Colors Ultimate on sale for 75% off and on Amazon, I got 4 songs for my personal soundtrack. It's a rather emotionally random playlist, but I have a few songs that are amusing or thoughtful towards my being.

I usually play as evening DJ to my mom when she's off from work and is preparing dinner. I usually play throwbacks from the 1980s to 2000s

Dear CVS,

It has been awhile since we've clashed. Good things cannot last.

When a person calls to have one of their prescriptions refilled, having your bot tell them that said prescription does not exist is . I'm sure there are people that try to get refills on expired scripts or even scripts that need to be renewed. However, when a person has the slip sitting in front of them that says they have 7 refills until the end of November, there's a problem.

In the end, after speaking with a human, said script that doesn't exist according to your POS bot will be filled, but that doesn't change the POS bot situation. It is bad enough that people are having to pay more in terms of electricity to accommodate the weirdos that marry things that are not human, but is it too much to ask that you [CVS] make sure your stupid bots are actually working before putting them live. That would be great. I personally am tired of having conversations with stupid clankers. Clankers use more than just gobs of natural resources. They also waste a human's time with problems that doesn't exist.

People Are Marrying Their AI

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XZ7XTTaXfOk

So after about 6 months of owning my bike, I only just realized that I have Shimano 7 speed gear selector mounted to a 5 speed gearhub. I've never used the 6th and 7th gear and rarely use the 5th, but wow. It's hilariously disappointing.

My grandfather is having a party for his 97th birthday.

Sadly, due to my crippling anxiety, I won't be there to celebrate. I probably would be at home still recovering from my cold. It's hanging on in terms of congestion.

Currently breaking out in hives. I have the wild rabbits to thank for it.

In the spring, we transplanted a bunch of Kodiak Red plants that were mixed in with the big hosta garden.



It was said that rabbits would leave these plants alone. Yeah, no... they don't. They destroyed 5 of the 7 plants we transplanted. Because we still want something inside the fence for the backyard, we decided to go with more Blue Point Junipers.



This picture that I grabbed from some website doesn't do these plants justice. As the temperature drops, they turn a silvery-blue color. They're pretty, don't shed and are easy to maintain. The two we bought last year have grown a couple of inches since planting.

The thing about these juniper is some people have a reaction to their needles while others don't. I fall into the reaction category. I didn't put on a long sleeve shirt when we were planting, so my right arm is itchy AF. I have Benedryl cream if itchy gets too bad. The hives will go away in a hour or so.

Since these plants like to be planted in the cooler weather, we ordered 2 more that should be in next week. We really need 5 in total, but since they're on the pricey side, we bought the one the nursery had, then had them order 2 more. If the ones they ordered look good when they come in, we'll order two more. That will put us in late September, early October which works. It will be cooled off, but not so cold the plants will freeze while becoming established.

I watched Toy Story in 4DX in theaters for its 30th Anniversary. It was of course good and I have seen it before during my childhood but it's always something else when re-watching as an adult and seeing all the adult humor that you missed as a kid. Initially I thought how is Toy Story going to be a good candidate for the 4DX format? But it pulled it off quite nicely though it wasn't always the best match up for the action but for the most part was well done.

Before that I went to Bath and Body but realized that marshmallow pumpkin latte was just anti-bacterial spray and doesn't really smell like much. There was this cupcake/birthday cake lotion or something like that that was on sale that the employee let me try out but upon looking around again at the prices I had a second thought. Why spend so much money on fragrances when I can find others that I enjoy just as much, if not more, and pay way less like Dove for example when it comes to soap/lotion...body care in general? Plus Body Fantasies sprays for the smaller bottles aren't too expensive and lasts a long time for me as I don't typically use it daily or a lot. I hope in the future they get all their scents as lotions at least too and possibly body soaps.

I did end up going to another store and found more scents of Body Fantasies but honestly I couldn't justify spending $8 for the bigger bottles for any of those scents that didn't wow me like Vanilla and Japanese Cherry Blossom. They were nice scents but not something that would become yet another favorite. Then again I'll probably try a test again as I started spraying a lot again. But where are the smaller bottles though? The travel size ones are perfect for me.

On a different note I found the gaming laptop I want but most likely I will not obtain it because it's too pricey. However, if I were going to spend thousands on a gaming laptop it might as well be something I like and want in all areas. I enjoy sensory experiences which is why my new favorite pastime is watching movies in the 4DX format. The display/screen on my possibly new laptop should be clear and crisp to get great quality for high-end gaming. What is aesthetically pleasing to me is colors/light shows so a colorful backlit keyboard, etc is ideal for nighttime gameplay. Well, if I could again I would be a night owl at least sometimes. Usually I don't care about having the latest technology and while I am content with my non-gaming laptop, the circumstance I am in I might as well possibly invest in a gaming laptop that I also would use as if a portable gaming desktop. Now how would Resident Evil 4 (2023) or Resident Evil: Village (2021) or what I am hoping to play day one Resident Evil: Requiem (2026) with ray-tracing or Cyberpunk 2077 (2020) with path-tracing look and play with a RTX 5090 compared to what I had and lost a RTX 2070? Dream on.


https://rog.asus.com/us/laptops/rog...x-scar-18-2025/

Today, my father is going to work for a candy factory. He will be going through an orientation and training program for the job.

As for me? I started a money saving challenge. I rigged up a binder with trading card sleeve pages and sticky tape (like when wrapping up holiday presents) as I couldn't afford to buy another thing, until I donate whatever I had that no longer serves me any good.

I like when my father works. Keeps him happy and his mood is stable.

I hope I can get a decent job soon. Preferably away from people (working from home would be best) because I am not wanting to be vulnerable to workplace harassment or deal with politics, office or otherwise.

Overall, today is a fresh start.

My daughter bought a knock-off squishmallow from Aldi, apparently named Mootilda. Which got me looking back through Mootilda's MTS profile, and onto the Riverside hood building group, and then I was thinking about how I was so excited for Riverside but when it first came out I downloaded it and my laptop at the time couldn't handle it and kept crashing and then several computers since I still haven't downloaded it...

So I spent today cleaning my house and doing all the housework I was suppose to do tomorrow, so I can spend the whole day (or atleast the 4 hours of child free time I have) tomorrow playing Sims completely guilt free.

So excited to finally download Riverside

I went to my appointment and I also did some errands.

I survived the two days of office visits and errands. I am so going to sleep off the days tonight.

I am still awaiting the next step and a movie in the mail.

I found myself doing tons of dishes through the morning and afternoon, woke up from my nap and had to get the house neatened up for my father so he can work on dinner or spending time with the cat.

Lately finding little joy or time in my day to finish reinstalling The Sims 3.

My room, to quote The Big Bang Theory's Sheldon Cooper (as portrayed by Jim Parsons) is "a swirling vortex of entropy".

I also have no seat to sit on and type out the serial codes, I am trying to keep up with housework while applying for work through my local department of labor, the nightmare list grows.

Update: 9/19/2025 - 14:03
I cleaned up a bit and was able to install the add-ons up to the Diesel stuff pack.

I guess I had time to install the expansion and stuff packs.

As for now, I also put my CD & DVD collections in paper sleeves and into plastic Sterilite flip top containers.

I eventually decided to watch a movie on disc. I had been busy today beyond dishwashing. I am glad I am taking a break before my father comes home in a few hours.

I had little time for any breaks as I spent 2 days in a row going to doctor appointments and running errands.

16:05
So far, I watched "Lilo and Stitch" on disc. I am currently deciding to make my own creature taming series, regardless of Nintendo claiming to own the generalized concepts of battling and rideable mount creatures. The concept was around long before Pokémon.

Besides, I rather be spending time with my family and friends instead of wasting energy rewriting a concept that was already invented prior to the patent.

Besides, my father's former co-worker just lost his sister to brain cancer. They were close for siblings and said goodbye while addressing each other by their special nicknames for each other.

And the hits kept coming for the co-worker as his late partner's brother had a seizure and the likelihood of having one month left to live just is sad.

My father stayed up to listen to the co-worker, who, although made fun of father's bald spot, he donated pants that were a nice fit when my dad began to lose weight.

It was a weird mutual co-worker relationship, but he was a good man to stay up and hear out the co-worker's woes.

The kind of men I seek usually are on the same level as my father: higher than any pole vaulter can take on. My father literally raised the bar for how men should behave.

I feel like I've been shoveling shit against the tide all week. Yeah things got done, ( my desk has been cleaned off for the past few days. Woo-hoo! SMH) but I could have lived without all the fighting with AI bullshit. CVS and Verizon can keep their nonsense to themselves.

Stuff was delivered yesterday for the contractor to install new windows. Later in the afternoon I had to cover everything as little wild rabbit was drawn to the pile of stuff like a moth to flame. I'm not interested in shelling out more cash for materials because little rabbit thought all things need to be chewed on. It took over a month before the windows were done as the size of windows around the house are not the same as off-the-shelf sizes sold at big box stores like Lowes and Home Depot.

The junipers we ordered last weekend are in, so that will be another project done. I forgot to ask the nursery about ordering two more yesterday. We'll ask them about that today.

September has been a long, expensive month and it's not over. Everything it taken care and paid for, but meh.

EDIT: Contractor bailed early. All that is left to do is the inside / outside trim. It is nice not having foggy windows. It is supposed to get down into the high 40's tonight. I'm glad we're getting this done now as it would have been too cold if we waited much longer.

The plant nursery ordered 5 junpiers last week; we bought 4 of the 5. I would have bought the 5th one, but we don't have a place for it. If I find a spot and they still have it, we'll get it then. I digress. The plants are healthy and are in the ground. I was spared being poked and breaking out in hives this time.

The are two Kodiak Reds left. There is a new batch of baby bunnies. Who knows if the last two Kodiaks will be spared or not. The batch of bunnies that destroyed the other plants are now medium-sized as they've had all summer to grow up a bit.

I wasn't sure what I wanted to do today and there aren't any movies I am looking forward to as of now but decided to go watch The Conjuring: Last Rites. Sometimes taking a chance and it ends up being a good watch thus worth it and in this case it indeed was though I have not seen the Annabelle movie(s) or any other Conjuring or connected movies, I think.

The Conjuring: Last Rites
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bMgfsdYoEEo

I do like movies based on true stories and/or true events...plus the whole supernatural phenomena is something I go through and had been going through since I was little so I am aware of the spiritual realm. The movie did touch on a lot of what I call altered reality where what you see and hear is there for you and real to you but not true reality as everyone else is not affected, which can be an enemy attack. This can come in the form of either good or evil depending. For good the example of being visited by your guardian angel(s) and no one but you can see them and to everyone else it looks like you are talking to yourself. For bad the example of hearing things said in the voices of people around you saying something they did not actually say typically in a demeaning/condescending/rude manner for whatever reason(s) such as to invoke fear, doubt, anger, conflict, lack of confidence, lack of self-worth, distraction from the truth, etc.

Now the collection of cursed items in the movie had me thinking of the video game Control and if I remember correctly in the video game it was called Altered Items aka possessed object(s). In fact the premise of this whole movie constantly brought up Control in my mind as there's a reason I kept feeling like a lot of things discussed and presented in the video game sounds too much like reality as reality is stranger than fiction. And based on my own supernatural experiences every time a movie, video game, or whatever media chosen I can pick up on the connection to the spiritual realm and human world. Only the open-minded who have eyes to see, ears to hear will be attuned knowing that life itself is more than meets the eye.

Control
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PT5yMfC9LQM

Anyway, I liked the movie and got one jumpscare but it wasn't really scary...to me. I suppose the more I learn and the more supernatural experiences I have knowing the truth of it all, the more it loses its fear factor. Desensitization. It's starting to even get to the point where I am learning to turn my nightmares around and they quickly end. But sleep, what is sleep? I'm so tired.

*Also there was something in the movie that made me instantly think of what my mother told me about how I walked through the woman on the steps who got murdered by her boyfriend. I didn't see her but my mother did and said she didn't sense any evil. So now I wonder about those on the opposite side of the gulf, do they come back to earth spiritually like satan and the demons do too? They must do at times or how else is some attuned to that sort of gift see them then. I guess she might have been lamenting her murder.

Windows- Done! I still need to paint the trim but I'm not doing that until next weekend. We have one more "outdoor" project we want to get done before the snow starts flying. Then my contractor mentioned he is looking for winter work. I told him I have a project he can work on to keep him busy.

The upstairs bathroom is ugly AF. Original 70's avocado green tile, flooring that Jingle destroyed when she was a puppy, popcorn ceiling, a window that kind of works, ect...

I have no idea when this project will be done, but I'm declaring it a Christmas present. We've been living on the cheap for over a year with zero reason to change that. Since we have a credit card that earns rewards now, the cash back from that will sit and rot in a savings account to help pay for it. It is a small bathroom, we're not moving plumbing or adding things. It will be updating what we have so it won't be ugly AF. I clean the bathroom a couple times a week but it never looks clean because of how it looks.

I cleaned up so much stuff off the floor.

My father is trying to get things done like donate unwanted items to charity or leave in a "Free Stuff" box. This is to prepare for the "when" of my grandfather's passing, the house I live in is just a rental, and it's part of the estate. Besides, I think it may do me a world of good to clean up anyway.

I also had done some downsizing for when we must move. I can only hope for another house. Moving back into apartments would be something of a downgrade in space and privacy.

The last apartment I lived in for a prolonged time had noisy neighbors. The people above us would stomp, the people below us did drunken Russian karaoke.

The only one that did not give us grief was the unit next door, I remember they played piano which helped me with my sleeping issues.

Either way, I took a nap and woke up at night. Still, living with my parents is a good safety net for now.

They give me a home for a fair rent as my grandfather set up with them a special agreement as our landlord, and I help them with menial tasks like bringing coffee to my mom on her days off to help her prepare for the week ahead.

My father is going to be earning a weekly paycheck for his work at the candy factory, as we still have debts to pay off and I am now currently working towards getting employed to supplement my own income.

Our family would be best described as TRIOAK by my second eldest aunt (TRiple Income, One Adjusted Kid, in reference to growing up adjusted and taking on responsibility for my own actions in financial affairs.)

For now, being perfectly happy for my waiting for a job is fine.

I really need a job to support myself. I don't really make much in any sort of benefits and I one day want to live on my own. I already have saved up $60 plus change for a $60,000 house. I just need to find a decent priced piece of land...and maybe room for a patio for summer activities.

Growing up may suck in terms of red tape...but the rewards are worth the reaping of what one sows