I hope everything is ok!

Shopping again.

Bought dietary supplement for various reasons for improvement of muscular function, more dolls to my collection, supplies for my healthcare, and a few hanging pocket chart organization tapestries.

Edit: Spent today, Sunday, picking up garbage and recycling from my bedroom, my bathroom, and the kitchen; (the last one was because I was unboxing dolls there) displaying dolls for photography, and today, I'm waiting on a delivery of supplements.

Let's just say that right now, I don't want another day to come.

Shopping, once again.

Groceries, socks, toilet paper. I used my own money for the socks and toilet paper and I owe $70 in groceries to my parents.

Cleared garbage and clutter off the floor around a bookcase I no longer desire. Also cleaned up the bookcase and transferred books to another shelf. Took 3-4 days off and on to empty it.

It's been a while. Been busy with life at the moment.

I have been doing well otherwise.

The empty bookcase currently has the majority of my dolls from the Rainbow High\Shadow High lines. Looking at the dolls on the shelf, I think I am almost up to date.

I have nearly every doll on the market and the dolls released in 2022 were numerous in numbers. I don't have any of the holiday ones nor the Paris Hilton headmistress of Pacific Coast High.

(The Pacific Coast High line was cancelled due to low sales so she was slightly rebranded and due to the Amazon 3rd party seller's discretion, it can vary by seller in price.)

I am waiting on 4 pocket chart organizers with 60 pockets. I divided them up by school for 2 and special status for the other 2.

Currently, the core doll lines for Rainbow High are going to release the Series 5 this spring and Shadow High released their Series 2.

(Series 2 is the first line without a secondary outfit released.)

At $30 per doll with plastic accessories in place of the outfits at the physical shops, Amazon sold them for $25 per doll. I love a bargain sale when shopping online. A 16% off deal for all 6 dolls...That was a bargain

I also bought the RainbowVision subline for $32 a set. The original price was $50 a set. A 36% off deal for the remaining dolls on my wishlist.

Still, I usually wait for a sale for any expensive dolls.

As I don't have much of a job beyond lending my voice to animated musicals when an actress can't hit the sound right or singing European dance music hit, be they originals or covers of famous pop\disco tunes, I spend time collecting dolls and I am almost caught up.

Of course, I still have to pay for over the counter supplements like krill oil, pumpkin seed and soy germ mix, biotin, amino acids for hair growth, vitamin D3, and iron. Of course, along with my medication, it's a potent cocktail.

My psychiatrist teleconferenced me and asked how I was since I last talked and I told him my hell of COVID-19 during the Christmas season.

He then ordered blood work and is sending the paperwork to my house due to health regulations preventing those at risk of contracting the virus based on co-morbidities from entering the hospital in unnecessary conditions.

My day was fine. I'm waiting on a package that I need to return because I decided to switch brands for health reasons.

I am planning on purchasing some new dolls and the Dekaranger DVDs that are coming out on Valentine's Day. I might get them in time for White Day.

(White Day is celebrated in South Korea and Japan. Typically, if a woman gave a man chocolates on February 14, he usually returns the favor on March 14 with either textile goods like underpants and clothes made of white cloth, depending on the intimacy\closeness of their relationship or white chocolate candies, to be safe. To be fair, the gift man gives must be a minimum of 2-3 more in price than the gift he received on Valentine's Day)

April 14 (in South Korea) and February 15 (in the US) is Singles Day. In South Korea, jjajanggmyeon, a noodle dish in black sauce is served. As I currently have no one to date right now, I probably will be eating more jjajanggmyeon in the days leading up to Singles Day.

Yeah, now that I think about it, I am doing fine.

I got my period back naturally after 2 years without it.

I was on birth control that halted it for about a year. Then I was put on pills to trigger a period every 3 months. I had a period last month from those pills, but I got it this evening and it was without any cajoling or manipulation.

I am dealing with bad cramps like crazy. I feel run over. I just hope I don't bleed the bed and make it look like a half-assed cleaned-up murder scene where the body is missing.

Did some psychoanalysis on a certain animation personality (a show runner) and his childishness makes my adorable cuteness less of a threat, almost less of a tiny terror and more of a weak little baby being carted to the library in a baby carriage by my mom.

With him out of the picture and currently awaiting trial, it seems late night and streaming programming will be making some changes. Hopefully for the better as far as damage control is concerned

With two factions of his works either being "The shows will go on..." or "Go cancel yourself!", it was an enlightened read to see the self destruct was actually from the start. (In other words, this was apparent from the beginning of his endeavors in the industry.)

I could apply this to anyone in animation affected in the #metoo and #TimesUp aftermath.

In truth, for everyone who has skeletons in their proverbial closets, there are at least 1 or a few who have given them the worst reputation in their overall character.

If you asked me about my dirty skeleton, I have a kleptomaniac issue around books that would otherwise be thrown out, even if they are in the best condition. I usually save books that would otherwise be tossed into the landfill.

I don't think anyone is free of any sins nor hasn't broken a commandment or cardinal rule leading to a sin in regards to whatever morals may be applicable to them.

That was my afternoon.

This morning was actually a red letter day starter. I recently took a photo of the snow covered forest behind my house. (sadly, the snow was washed away that night from the heavy rain, so I was glad I took the photo when the opportunity was present)

I mentioned Richard Epcar to the picture, who I have both been interviewing and crushing on from afar about it because at the time, he was currently busy working the convention circuit and giving updates during downtime. He admitted the snowfall was beautiful.

This morning, not only did Richard like the photo, but also Paul St. Peter enjoyed the shot. So with that, impressing both voice actors who voiced Ansem AND Xemnas was actually an oddly satisfying morning wake up call.

Not many people can say they impressed underrated celebrities in the morning and then took time to read a psychological thriller involving the reality of a disjointed, wildly inappropriate man-child and what the future holds for his works.

Yes, I read the news, but in my defense, I was curious as to how much would be affected by removing that one "rotten apple"...

Cleaned up my room and found a doll and an empty CD wallet. While rearranging the contents of my closet, I found an old box of dot matrix printer paper (the kind with perforation for the sides and the ends between each standardized sized section of 8½" by 11" and attached end to end) and a jewelry box full of necklaces my grandmother wore.

I inherited from my grandmother's estate the paper (which is from 1985, so I still have some experience with this type of paper.) the jewelry box and necklaces; the two bookcases, and her old HDTV from her final days before passing away on the morning of June 30, 2014 after checking her youngest child, my uncle John, who grew to 6' tall, and had one last kiss with my grandfather.

They held the intra-estate sale on my 29th birthday and I even was gifted two humor books "Life's Little Destruction Book" and one of the Far Side collections, prefaced with Gary Larsen recalling the stories his older siblings would tell him to frighten him when going to fetch firewood.

I think it would be funny to draw on the untouched dot matrix printer paper a really long picture of a chase scene with dialogue. I would start with my avatar character in my works, Claire de Lune, a woman with a checkered past, being chased by Lupin III, Jigen, Goemon, Fujiko and Inspector Zenigata from the Lupin III franchise. It transitions to Chibiusa from Sailor Moon (Trivia: Lex Lang, who voiced Goemon in a number of Lupin III series, is married to Sandy Fox, who voiced Chibiusa in the second English dub of Sailor Moon Viz\Studiopolis oversaw) and by height, the 9 other Sailor Guardians and Tuxedo Mask, followed by Lincoln Loud and his sisters from oldest to youngest (referencing the main cast of heroes in the Sailor Moon series and the Loud children number in 11 heads per group, each with a token male lead, whether leading or assisting.).

I better write this down for further use.

Didn't sleep well last night. Had to take a Benadryl. One is enough for me to doze off.

Got my third COVID-19 booster (Omicron booster). Went home and pretty much fell asleep hard, slept for a few hours.

Broke my favorite red eyeglasses, modeled after Jimmy McShane's in the Baltimora music videos (excluding "Tarzan Boy"). Snapped at the temple on the left side.

Had to argue over a transaction. I still have a positive balance, but now considering investing in big food companies known worldwide for passive income and I am willing to donate and pay taxes.

(After that rough ride down the street to return to the highway, they ought to fix that particular street we traveled and taxes usually pay for repairs to damaged public property.)

Either way, I am waiting for a few packages this week for Valentine's Day and Singles Day. (Singles Day is celebrated the day after Valentine's Day.)

Lately, just hanging out at home, recovering from a vaccine booster shot.

Aired\Vented my grievances in animation storytelling that plagues American animation.

1. The censoring of a real name or part of a full name as a GAG. Took 20 years to reveal the titular character's full name for Hey Arnold! was actually part of Grandpa Phil's addressing him in military fashion of family name only. That dragged like my ass when finals were almost done with in junior high. Turned out his full name was Arnold Shortman! Craig Bartlett, you skated on thin ice with that joke!

2. The missing finger on either hand. Four fingers (or three finger and a thumb for you technical types) can actually get your works fined in certain jurisdictions due to criminal practices. Ever heard of the Japanese practice of yubitsume?

3. Swearing something to "national secrecy". Unless we're talking about high school secret agents, I call being born on the side of a highway, delivered by The President of the USA, well...I call bullshit if it has to be hidden. If anything, it should be a high honor. Kid should be given special protections and I am NOT talking Area 51 grade secrecy!

(out of these 3 grievances, 2 eventually migrated into anime.)

Either way, I have been looking for gel pens for my journal for development of my AI-driven droids. However, such droids cannot pursue jobs in the arts without prior authorization.

Well, I have my floating continent and rights for AI-driven droids don't exactly apply...for one thing, I haven't written a Constitution or a Bill of Rights, nor made any amendments beyond a model of Freedom of Expression to comply within legal protections of the citizens. Then again, my continent is in the embryonic phase of planning.

I guess my afternoon sleep only made my mind busy lately. I gave myself a panic attack.

Came up with two chicken fast food restaurants. One that is only open Sundays and donates to pro-LGBTQIA+ causes and the other was a genderbent version of Hooters dubbed "Wild Wing Boys". Although some some ideas are already out there, it's executing them that needs work.

Valentine's Day all alone...all I can do is dream about the tall, dark, and handsome older gentlemen who live rent-free in my mental state with the apartment full of emotions.

I'm expecting a package in the mail today and maybe tomorrow. The latter said between February 14th-17th, so there's a chance it might show up tomorrow. The tracking bar says it's close enough to Asshole, USA.

I got my Omicron booster yesterday as my big Valentine's Day gift. I rather spread love instead of a virus.

It knocked me out hard at 12:00 that I woke up and my father who works until 15:00-15:30 hours was home by then (my father's family has military ties) and my mother walks in at 18:30.

I had buttered spaghetti today because my stomach hurts because I am so ripped up in the "tummy". It hurt me enough to weaken me.

Feeling all wrung out and left to dry, and still have one day with various activities left of my "week(end) of hell"... 😩

Fell asleep in front of my computer last night (in my bed, but still), and probably would've overslept for work if I lived alone. Usuallly I'd probably woken up at some point and properly gone to bed and set my alarm and all that, but I've been extremely tired the past week, so I probably just zoned out so completely I didn't even notice I was sitting up.

Brain = tumbleweed and crickets right now... 🦗

Yep that's basically every year for me, just sitting here on my own wishing I had someone to share it with. Oh well, why worry about just a single day of the year anyway? Even though I feel completely alone I've come to see Valentines Day as completely pointless, because if you have someone why focus on that one day a year when you should show them love every day.

I would have said "I love you" to my Twitter group, but the butterflies in my stomach were more like 4 Tasmanian Devil joeys duking it out after the mother left the den. I usually take Valentine's Day as the occasion to say "I love you" without coming on strong or seem off-putting.

I guess I will be eating jjajangmyeon in April.

Week(end) from hell is over, and I have several days off, and I'm down to the last dregs of energy. Time to recharge.

Sometimes I wish I had a quick-charger that worked on humans. I could really use one. At this stage it probably takes at least a week to charge me up to 50%... 🥴

I'm going to stop for the night at 19:45 and get some sleep that I really need.

I did some online window shopping and I saw interesting dolls and DIY ones were really interesting, but the sticker shock was a deterrent.

Thinking about taking up sewing. I learned the set up of a sewing machine on the Amazon page for the beginner sewing machine I had my eye on.

Blah blah... something something something. So numb today even the booze don't help alleviate the blah.

I lost about 8 pounds in the past few days. I am aware that's not a good sign when your stomach is ripped up.

I have to buy stomach medicine, storage bags, milk and ginger ale this morning and see a doctor about my "cyborg" implant this afternoon.

Sorry if I was gone for the past few days, but I am fine now. I am committing myself to making bento boxes. Mostly full of animal shaped onigiri. (Onigiri are rice balls filled with savory filling or seasoned with flavoring, usually wrapped in nori, for those wondering.)

Update: 02/20/2023

I had my "cyborg" physical and I eventually will need to go under the knife again for a replacement implant with better alignment to my nerves, a brand new battery and MRI compatibility. (My old one is failing, the battery is dying and it wasn't MRI compatible.) During the pandemic, they released new and improved implants.

For now, I am on a new medication that requires getting accustomed to for a month for my muscle issues.

I am definitely getting back into learning how to make bento boxes of the character bento (kyara-ben) type. I received 3 soy nori packs in the mail while I was out.

Today was also a pay day and shopping day. I bought a lot of fluids because I still have a stomach issue being that it's ripped up. I bought stomach medicine and gallon Ziploc bags as wells as part of the pay and shop day.

Either way, I am fine.

Not sleeping much. About to jump out of my skin.

Otherwise, I had two missing packages refunded. Surely, I can't be so remote that the route is a lost cause.

I have another doctor appointment tomorrow and hope to sleep through the night tonight.

Went shopping

I bought the latest tech in security of personal effects: 7 biometric scanning cash boxes and I have 13 I decided to retire with the original key for each. They were barely used and I decided they no longer, in Ms. Kondo's much-shilled tagline "spark joy" like they used to.

I also decided to pick up the entire 6-movie set of Digimon Adventure tri, as it is going out of print, Digimon Adventure Last Evolution Kizuna...

Season 1, Volume 2 and Seasons 2 and 3 of The Loud House (I am more a fan of it because of my upbringing in a large extended family. I already know how toxic the fandom got, unfortunately ) and Season 1 of the spin-off, The Casagrandes...

a pink 4-digit padlock, bumper stickers to decorate the boxes and a novelty egg.

Currently, I have a package from Amazon coming tomorrow. Hair extension strips for different occasions. I decided to stop dyeing my hair to let it recover.

The padlock is to a steamer trunk hidden in the middle of my room, amid the swirling vortex of entropy that some people have survived.

I also received mamenori (a soybean based nori substitute I use in my bento boxes), customized temporary tattoos (the cheesy heart with the two lovers' names on the scrolled papyrus is a classic in my book), and Pepto Bismol tablets (my stomach is like a hyena's lately).

Currently, I am watching for the uncut releases of Sonic X and Digimon Adventure (1999) in the original Japanese audio on Blu-Ray, and waiting for quality control to improve at MGA's factories as I am collecting dolls and currently, there are quality issues with certain dolls.

I would go into detail on the dolls' current situation in quality control, but I worry I'd bored to tears\death.

Wrote a hip-hop song but I don't want to share it because I was in a naughty mood writing it.

I am currently dealing with a back pain that I worry is a kidney stone or infection and I am worrying I am going to die.

Not very happy with things right now beyond writing lyrics.

Edit: Slept in this afternoon. Finally got through the first 100 episodes of SpongeBob SquarePants. May watch the extras disc.

Cat singing along to George Michael and Elton John. My cat enjoys poppy music.

Actually, if cats and dogs were picking music, cats would pick Motown pop and dogs would pick classic reggae, according to animal studies on psychological leanings.

Edit 2: I got my packages early due to weather tonight turning sour in NJ. When my parents saw what was laid out (as I put away anything food or drug administrations-related), they verbally reamed me. My mother was about to admonish me, but she shut up once she looked at her crafting projects on the dining table.

I bought mostly East Asian food products like seaweed squares from South Korea and Japanese nori, furikake, and mamenori for my onigiri (rice ball) creations and the natural food dye powder I used for one of my sushi presentations which I do make food art as part of my "the universe is my canvas" attitude as an artist.

As for the dolls and movies I bought, I am probably going to have an unboxing party where I watch movies in between sessions of unboxing dolls so I can get my fingers to recover between rounds

(The way they pack those dolls is like that Chipmunks movie in the late 1980s - early 1990s where they were unwittingly smuggling jewel-filled plushies of their stage personas...like 24k gold is hiding in the dolls.) And to be fair, one doll was 40% off on Amazon.

I have to fix and clean some of my discs which, although were new, some were scratched with minor scratches and smudged at the packaging center, I can fix it, but it took about 30 minutes to find my DVD care kit.

It includes a microfiber cloth (I swear it gets it done great), a spray for smudges and a goo for scratches. I have a physical media library as I like own a "forever copy", as in, once I buy it, I can keep it for as long as I live and digital and streaming has its caveats due to copyrights, trademarks and assorted legal media mumbojumbo that lawyers enjoy reading for the thrill of it.

Music CD, video DVD, gaming discs and even Blu-Ray Discs benefit from the kit I assembled.

As far as today went, the delivery was a surprise to receive but if I am snowed in tomorrow morning, I am catching up on "The Loud House" and eating rice with furikake. Furikake are savory sprinkles, usually for steamed rice and onigiri (rice balls) but other savory dishes benefit from them. For those who want to start on such condiments, I recommend starting with gomashio (black sesame seeds and salt).

Lately, I had...

...cleaned up the pantry for my food...
...took the recycling to the garage for later pick up on Recycle Day...
...brought in any packages and...

...with a small number of moderate curse words found in a PG-13 movie and a primal scream along the lines of Homer Simpson or Shan-Yu from Disney's Mulan, which nearly led to trying to get back at Walt Whitman in Homer's voice (my voice is at a register where I can do male and female voices) "I! HATE! YOU! WALT! FRIGGIN! WHITMAN! LEAVES OF GRASS, MY ASS! ARGGH!" (Now that I remember, "friggin?". My voice coach used to vocalize that word 20 years ago as a hardboiled, no-nonsense marksman.)...I made my bed by myself and it's a queen size bed due to my sleep patterns and back issues, which are eased at night...

(Now that I mentioned it, Walt Whitman is buried somewhere in New Jersey.

New Jersey isn't as bad as we made it out to be with the infamous hazmat incident at the Jersey Shore in the 1980s-1990s, the highest number of toxic waste sites, or even the revealed truth that Edison was less of an inventor and more of a complete dick to everyone, even Nikola Tesla, for stealing Tesla's works that otherwise would have been free utilities and using electricity in awful pranks.)

...it was a long day. I slept well for a while.

I tend to overthink. Good thing I have therapy next week and I definitely will give Ms. CS my thoughts.

At least New Jersey is a real place, unlike Finland or Delaware /s

Delaware always like to rub in the fact it was ratified first. We fucking get it!

As for my day...

I did laundry.
I showered after a stressful long period in between the last one.
Calculated the possible shipment for April 2023.
Looked into low sugar\plant based foods.
Set up alarms for my daily schedule.

Not really much of a day like yesterday, but at least I didn't lose my shit over a mistake in making a bed.

Grocery Shopping Day. I found everything except Snapple Orangeade (normally at the ShopRite, I buy the flavors, Snapple Apple 🍎, Grapeade 🍇, and Orangeade 🍊, so I bought Fruit Punch in place of Orangeade.) And the regular "Classic" pizza crust from Pillsbury I was going to use for my veggie pizza 🍕. Good thing I bought that frozen pizza.

(Yes, I missed being able to see emoji on my phone.)

I ate some shelled edamame, which induced a 2-hour food coma. Right now, watching a Blu-Ray of compiled videos on my drive that I eventually deleted to make room for new work in audio\video production. 💻⌨️🖱️

I was worried about how much food cost. I barely have $20 left, but I bought frozen and pantry items, so that should stretch it further. I found the Creste di Gallo pasta that I like. (According to food folklore, the shapes of pasta are dictated by where the people were. Creste di Gallo were likely made on farms, because they look like rooster combs "creste di gallo" and much of the pasta shapes, like most of Italian cuisine were usually left untranslated from Italian. Straciatelli are "priest stranglers".)

Did more cleaning up in my bedroom. Moved a heavy, lilac-colored steamer trunk from the foot of the bed to the other side of my queen bed.

I still have a ways to go before that swirling vortex of entropy is tamed.