This morning, I finally gave my floor one last sweep.

Phase 1: complete ✔️

Phase 2: get the assorted stuff that fell under the bed.

Phase 2: 76% completed (it was actually kinda bare, under the bed proper, but behind where a headboard would be is some stuff that needs to be picked up.)

I also have a duty to make rice for tomorrow's dinner of fried rice, as day old rice is best for fried rice. My mom and I will shop for vegetables, meat and seasonings.

I got a lot done before 10:00. Onward to rice cooking!

Edit: I cooked the rice to perfection and it's cooling off in the fridge. I even took a sample and tried out my handiwork. It was just perfect.

Started watching YT videos sped up a week or two ago (enough to hear/understand what's been said while still being able to do something else on the side), and it is great for most videos (especially the slow talkers). Get through the long videos so much faster, too XD

I wish I could do it on streaming services, too (I used to record series, and watch them in fast-forward with texting - so much faster. But these days you can't fast-forward in real-time, only type 10 seconds at a time, or by skipping)

Anyway, enjoying some days off, before having a stretch of barely any time off at all (not looking forward to that...)

I have no idea what these mushrooms are called but we got a basket of them at the market cos we were like huh why do we only every buy these 3 types of mushrooms but none of the others? Personally as a vegetable or whatever, mushrooms are up near the top of the list (assuming they'e cooked right lol) but they're not wow or anything. Except these were 11/ 10 would buy again.
Based on the pic I think it was these

I've been in a fall cleaning mood. It has been getting down into the 50s here at night; I blame that for the want to clean all the things. My house doesn't look any different, but I'm away from anything screen related and getting things done. When fall actually gets here, I'll be able to enjoy the cool weather and not have to worry about dust bunny collections, ect...

That being said, I fell down a 'cleaner' rabbithole this afternoon. The videos are made by a woman who tests cleaners with sterile swaps and petri dishes to see if they do anything. She doesn't work for a lab and is doing these 'experiments' from her house, so the results shouldn't be taken too seriously. That being said, because she's not sponsored by any cleaning-related company, I'm more inclined to believe her results than that crap found pretty much all over the internet.

Here's the video that paved the way down the rabbithole. I've never bought into the whole E-Cloth thing. I'm glad I didn't. Having things like juice from raw chicken hanging around on a kitchen counter or lurking on a faucet is really nasty.

Bacteria Testing E-CLOTH Using Just Water! - Viewer Request!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H4v5L6FkkDU

My room is ready for a new bed and furniture!

I also helped with groceries today for tonight's dinner.

I even calculated the taxes and shipping charges for my shopping trip this upcoming pay cycle. Good thing I have the shopping app, or I would be surprised in a bad way.

I have no idea why there are so many people out and about to recruit as many as possible to register to vote. Yes, I get it, the presidential election is coming up but people who want to register and vote, if not already, will do that without prompting. A while back I almost got duped into registering to vote. Why be dishonest? Though my parents were never registered to vote, that's not the reason why I choose not to register and vote.

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So to help cope with anxiety when my senses begin to get overwhelmed concerning too much activity, I find distractions. Maybe it's watching a movie on my phone, listening to music, playing a game on the phone, drawing, etc. Though the last time I tried to draw I was not impressed but I'm sure it doesn't matter how long I haven't drawn for, it will come back to me once I start to get back in the groove. Distractions help me to focus my attention on something that is not anxiety-inducing.

I got some noise cancelling headphones that were $10 and ended up ditching them because it was one of those headphones that were too tight and gives me headaches. So that was a waste of $10 for me but I hope somebody is getting good use out of them. Then I went to Amazon so I could see reviews and found something on the cheap end for around $26. I don't care about name brand, I don't care about the best audio quality though I'm sure at some point that would be nice to get the most immersed in the audio. But for now I'm fine with the basics. Now these new noise cancelling headphones are comfortable, they are snug but not tight. The audio is fine but the only thing wrong is when I connect the headphones using the cord I can only hear either out of the left or right side or nothing at all at times.

But with bluetooth I can hear out of both sides. That's annoying but you know when I buy cheap and affordable, not everything may work out as I would hope. And I don't plan on returning...don't feel like it, it's good enough. Perhaps I can try buying another cord or maybe the jack itself is just dysfunctional. Either way, I'm keeping my $9 wired pair of headphones as a backup. I also got headphone ear pad covers because in this heat I sweat a lot but not just that, I produce a lot of oil, thus it would be quicker for the disintegration of the material. Then all I got to do is just wash them every so often and that will help from using a lot of alcohol prep pads. Also, the freedom of having no wires is nice because as clumsy as I am, I tend to snag on that wire frequently and oh how annoyingly frustrating that is. So I guess I'll be using these primarily for the bluetooth then, lol.

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Every time Hotel Transylvania or any of its sequels comes on, I got to watch it...over and over again. It reminds me of watching my favorite movies when I was a kid, over and over again. Also, waking up early and watching Family Matters reminds me of my cousin and I getting up early to watch it back in the day. Geez, I really have no family now. Oh well, lol. The people who are meant to be in my life will be here and if not, goodbye. Except my mother and grandfather...Hello! I will see you later and also my cute furballs, oh I miss those little rascals too.

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Awhile back I mentioned how I would love if Capcom brought back the classic Resident Evil games and what do you know, they reintroduced Resident Evil (1996) on GOG with plans to also release Resident Evil 2 (1998) and Resident Evil 3 (1999). I really enjoy the REmakes but I still like the classics too.

I hope ObsCure 3 eventually gets put back on the development plan list. But if not, there's at least the first and second game.

You know, I've never finished Final Fantasy VIII. I could not get past the last part with fighting all the bosses. Speaking of FF8, I'm not really into FF7 but I hope someday they show some love to FF8. A lot of fans would love to see that prequel that focuses on Laguna, Kiros and Ward and/or a remake that explores everything that was planned but was cut from the original FF8. Instead of 4, it could have been 8 discs, lol. It would have been worth it to me.

Ugh...I had a dentist appointment. Waited over an hour to be seen and while I am in their bathroom, they gave my spot to someone else. So 10 minutes later, they called me in the back and barely 5 minutes with him, as he's the only specialist on call, he noted my teeth were perfect after the surgery weeks ago.

I took a nap after all that.

P.S. He was the only dentist on call in the entire office. The office is severely short-staffed due to the issues from the understaffing during the COVID 19 pandemic and some are panicking about a monkeypox pandemic. Either way, I am lucky I got a clean bill of health.

Just got paid...and found myself adulting again.

Today, I am to receive my toothpaste of the month club flavor for August 2024.

I bought new furniture, which consists of a mattress and a TV stand; and a 6 box case of a flavor of Mac and cheese that's supposedly keto friendly (according to my father, I have to switch to a keto diet because my mental health conditions benefits from high protein, low carb and fiber plentiful diets.) as what was required.

I am customizing some cheapo tin coin banks with contact paper, washi tape and labels from a label maker.

My supplies for my tin bank art project are arriving in the mail today along with my new bedroom furniture and the new USB A to USB C Cables I ordered for the chargers to the phones upstairs and downstairs.

The tin banks I ordered through a separate Web site and will take a couple of weeks to arrive. They were those 3-chambered banks that Sunday school kids have to learn financial literacy and support the local church. I just find them easy to work with as I was going to work on an artsy-fartsy display. I wasn't in it for the pictures on the outside, but like my mom, we tend to get crazy ideas and when we hit a snag, we redo it, or "frog" it as it's called. The banks were originally $9.99, then discounted to $8.49 and since I was a new customer, I got it discounted to $6.79.

As for the Mac and Cheese, it should be here next week.

@Pandaqueen If you want any help with keto, send me a message. Been doing this for a while with really good results.

I first need to check with my doctors before going forward. I recently had a conversation with my therapist about it and I really should make sure it will work for me.

So, I received my bedroom furniture, my contact paper, my washi tape, my USB (A to C) cables and the Mac and Cheese I want to try.

All that is left are those tin banks I got for nearly 32% off.

I'm still mad my father asked me if I wanted food from a restaurant I hate because they always screw up the order. Is it really that difficult to put guacamole and sour cream in cups, separate from the quesadilla?

I think I need to eat... I am not my usual happy self.

It is day of getting rid of crap.

The end table that Jingle chewed chunks out of. This will be re-used somewhere else just not in the house.

Air purifiers are nice, but after a year or so it is impossible to find replacement filters. I don't do Amazon, so it's out of here.

Bissell Crosswave or this thing for those that don't know what a Crosswave is. https://www.bissell.com/bissell-cro...ndle-32389.html

I bought one of these almost 2 years ago. It worked great for about 8 months. Then the tank that holds the dirty water started leaking and or just completely emptying while I was trying to clean the floor. Yeah, no. I'm not into having to re-clean something that should have only had to be cleaned once. The leftover cleaner that came with the POS will be used up when I wash floors with the mop.

The rest of the fish tank stuff has left the house; finally.

There is The Boys' old computer. For a few weeks after he plopped it downstairs, ( out of sight, out of mind) he told me he was going to do something with it. It has been a year and half. I asked him yesterday if he was going to do something with it, he told me no. This danced on my nerves a bit.

We've been making semi-regular trips to Best Buy to recycle stuff for the past few months. He knows the process of recycling a old computer. We take the hard drive out, then bring the tower to the store. There are no fees unless there is a screen involved, so he has no excuse. He just left it downstairs to rot because he didn't feel like dealing with it. I've waited a year and half, he's going to deal with it today.

I do have a few donation things, but it isn't a box worth of stuff, so the box can sit around until it is full.

People that are into decluttering often talk about how containers can become clutter themselves over time. I have what is starting to become a collection of small bins. Either I'll find a use for them, or they'll go. I'm not going to look for things to buy just so I can use them. The most exciting things I've bought lately is veggie chews and Frontline Shield for the dogs. I don't need a bin or container for either one of these; they have a spot in a cabinet.

Then there is all the digital junk sitting on my computer. I haven't played my game in a few weeks and yet my desktop downloads folder is full. I'll deal with that tonight or tomorrow.

Context: I share an apartment with my brother.

I really don't want to be negative with him, but I just spent this morning cleaning up after him as per usual. He can't be bothered to clean or put away anything he's used. ADHD forgetfulness may be the problem but then again he walks past the stuff he left standing several times a day and talking hasn't helped at all.
This week he was away for 3 days and it was pure bliss. Cleaned the whole apt (except his room) and it just felt great. The moment he came back all relaxation left my body, and my mind instantly went into 'How long will it take before I have to clean up after him again?'
It took about 30 minutes before he put his empty drink can on the table instead of the trashcan 1 m away, and 2 hours to have sauce all over the kitchen counter after his cooking. Half of the food is also still in the pan and if I don't eat it or throw it away no one will.

It generally was the first time in YEARS I genuinely felt good.

Back to baseline 'Good' it is..

I've lived with a few of that type while studying... Once we'd cleaned the kitchen to perfection. Two hours later, somebody made tacos and the kitchen looked like a hurricane disaster area - sincerely, is it really not possible to clean up after making dinner? :/

In the above situation I'd probably give it a week or two with "not caring". I'd clean up after me as usual, but leave his mess. Cleaned-up plates and pans go in your room (he loses access to them if he leaves them dirty and you have to wash to use them. No plates/pots/pans left? Not your problem. He can buy new ones, or use paper plates if he doesn't want to wash). Spot-clean places you want to use, but don't care about his mess (that's for him to clean up - or sit in/eat out of/whatever). His mess/stuff he hasn't thrown away? Leave it in his spots (bed, chair, etc.). He'll probably start wondering where the cleanup-fairies went pretty soon. Could give him the wakeup-call he needs, and probably make him realize you are frustrated, and that something needs to change. It is probably going to annoy you too for a bit, but he is going to notice if there's nothing clean left anywhere, especially if there's nothing left to eat from.

Most ADHD-ers tend to be trainable in household tasks, but probably take more effort and upkeep - they do tend to get easily distracted, forget what they were doing, and easily fall into old habits. Once they've made themselves some habits, those habits die hard (especially "bad" ones, but good ones too if reinforced enough).

Having clear chores divided between you could likely help. A lot of ADHD-ers have problems dividing up larger tasks into smaller tasks, so perhaps you could together write a list of what needs to be done daily/weekly/monthly in each area? (daily - wiping surfaces; weekly - vaccuming, mopping floors, etc.). Leaving cleaning tools in strategic places (anything that's easy to reach/use - wipes, paper towels, etc.) for the spot cleaning could probably help a bit, too.

Anyway, just some random suggestions (do with what you want, or ignore).

I am reasonably sure I have ADHD (never been diagnosed, but pretty much all the signs are there). I have an aversion to household tasks unless they've become habit, so I try to make habits of things, even when - maybe especially when - I dislike doing them. If I need to clean up a mess, I just continue cleaning until I run out of steam (or spots to clean), or until there's a stop in my way (like the lawnmower that keeps stopping for no reason) - if you can keep me on the right track, I can keep going for a while (weeding the garden - I hate it, but I have kept going for 2+ hours and there's no stopping me - probably goes in the "oddly satisfying" category ), but I very easily derail with distractions. If I'm vacuuming up a spider, might as well do the rest of my room. I have a slight aversion to sticky stuff (especially when cooking), so I do surface cleaning to get rid of the sticky stuff. The "go with the current flow" thing is what keeps things looking somewhat alright around me. Probably for the best. I absolutely have the "out of sight, out of mind" thing, too. Even if I'm acutely aware of *the thing* I need to take with me from my room and put in a bin, *the thing* is still there 2-3 days later, because I can see it, turn around, and the moment I'm on my feet, *the thing* is gone from my memory. I see it again when I get back, think I'll take it to the bin on the next trip, then promptly forget about it until the next time I see *the thing*. Rinse and repeat about five times a day until I actually manage to hold *the thing* when I get up, because if it's in my hand I'm a little less likely to forget it (as long as I don't put it down where it's not supposed to be). I'm the exact same with names. I have managed to 'forget' the name of the same person (as in I know their name, but my short-time memory completely blanks) 10+ times in the span of one day, despite us being the only people in the room (name banner... I swear, I could not have gotten through that day without it)

So the best thing is to make sure what I'm not supposed to forget is within sight. If I can see it I'm a whole lot more likely to remember it (and do something about it).

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Some days there's nothing on TV/stream, I don't want to watch anything (even if I have stuff I can watch), and I have absolutely no inspiration to do nothing at all. Today is one of those days. I have things i probably should do, or kind of want to do. Am I doing those things? Nope. My hyperfocus ran out of batteries a while back (I'm not even sure which batteries it uses, or I'd put in new ones), and regular focus has maybe half an hour to an hour of runtime before it sees SomethingElseShinyTM to focus on, and so forth).

*Le Sigh*

I want my *concentrated from 1 pm to 8 am, barely eaten but isn't hungry, getting thing finished in one sitting* focus back. Haven't seen it since sometime around 2016-ish (It's entirely possible it got lost during packing).

Now it's more like "oh, you have barely poked at this thing for half an hour? BORING! Let's do something else!"

I find cleaning therapeutic, but since we've been clearing out all the clutter out of the house, I refuse to go back to spending hours cleaning. It is easier and less time consuming to stay on top of things so that I don't have to spend hours picking up. It isn't beneath anybody in the house to wash dishes, vacuum, ect... 3 humans live in the house, all of which have functioning arms and legs, so The Boy and Dingus do help. Since we're rolling into the time of year where more yard work needs to be done, they'll do that and I'll pick up the extra around the house until the leaves are done falling off the trees, ect...

I don't have ADHD, but sticking to a cleaning routine does help. We have a small house, so I clean one room each day of the week from top to bottom. Monday is kitchen day. Tuesday I clean the bathroom and the bedroom and so on.

I had a problem with attention span last year. I spent more time walking around trying to remember why I went into a room than I care to acknowledge. For me, I solved that problem by cutting way back on time spent in front of the computer. Until I got over the proverbial hump and no longer felt like I had the memory of a goldfish, I forced myself to sit and read roughly 100 pages a day.

Since putting myself through that for a couple of months, now if I find myself doing mindless things online, I get up and do something else. If I have to look for something to grab my interest, clearly I'm not interested. I always have something to do even if it is something stupid like cleaning out the fridge before grocery shopping or going through the file cabinet to clean out old paid bills.

Tomorrow, I have a shopping trip for groceries.

I have to work on my projects when I get the tin coin banks. I have an idea. I had to rearrange the plan when I decided to round up to 90 characters for an experimental field study.

I also learned how to cook on the stove again. It was like a successful bike ride. My parents tend to use the stove on work days. So cooking on the stove again was a pleasure. Still, I wish they'd clean the coils\drip pans so it doesn't burn food particles when I turn it on, forcing me to turn the vent on...The vent is friggin' noisy when running on either of the two speeds.

Edit: About 30 minutes ago, I remember someone pose a question of "If you could get all 11 Mainline Pokémon games from Generations 1-3 on 1 cartridge (including the Gen 3 remakes of Gen 1's original games) for a mere $70?"...

...and I realized that would be great as eventually Pokémon Bank will have to be phased out as Nintendo is known for the practice, that 11 games for $70, that's roughly $6.36 a game and I am still reminded of the 10 in one package for Kingdom Hearts.

Sometimes, that would be nice to not have to go through a rigamarole to get a quest completed.

But I think the biggest headache involving the Nintendo Switch is people asking for information on the successor, tentatively dubbed Nintendo Switch 2.

Nintendo is probably reaching a breaking point that's like "If you don't stop it back there, I WILL TURN THIS CAR AROUND!"

Because for the past year or so, people are begging for more information beyond backwards compatibility and technical specifications and for the August 2024 Nintendo Direct, prior to the stream, they warned that no Switch 2 information would be involved.

Yeah, so mostly, I am preparing for the new bed, but any time I want to play video games, I feel defeated from the energy I put in picking up garbage, sorting through things to Keep, Donate or Trash; sweeping the floor, finding socks under the bed...

It's been hard and unpleasant. Adulting for me means I have to clean my room while dealing with tiny spiders running away after I disturb them.

Today was grocery day.

I bought so much that I ended up needing to eat it soon.

When I found out the box for a food I was going to buy was damaged by a box cutter, I asked a clerk if he could replace it. Luckily, he got it before we had to check out. (New Jersey employees were always the above and beyond type compared to the Seattle Area. Glad to live here.

P.S. My personal experience with New Jersey store clerks VS. rude Seattle store clerks. Not all are created equal.)

Today I got an email from EA forums, informing me that I received 15 badges. 1-14 were for the 14 anniversaries since I joined the forum in 2009,but I got them all today. And one was for “creat(ing) a new discussion”.I haven’t visited that forum in 10+ years. Weird

Streamer Almost Burns Down Apartment While Live

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GeiaTDoaVOw

Warning: There is a ass cheek shot in this video. Having your ass hanging out while starting a kitchen fire is always makes it rain with cash on the internet.

Since I'm here yapping about stupid crap on the internet, watch out for all the freaks that are getting into fights over backpacks. Just a few months ago it was Stanley Cups. TikTok has moved on to the next micro-trend that nobody will care about in a couple of weeks.

The Sprayground Backpack Craze Has Gone Too Far!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LcNF4zK0wrE

Getting my furniture rearranged!

So far, I need to get it all disconnected before reconnecting.

Edit: It's done for now. Just need to take a break.

I didn't realize how much I missed eating fruit. Well actually, I do know that I miss eating fresh watermelon, cantaloupe, grapes and melon. I got some peaches and mandarin oranges fruit cups and a cherry mixed fruit cup that includes pears, peaches, pineapples and cherries in light syrup. Eating the cherry mixed fruit cup got me thinking of other specific ways I do things. For example I tend to eat all the fruit except the cherries and save the cherries for last to eat, then drink the syrup.

When it comes to Oreo cookies I like to nibble all the way around both the top and bottom cookie until reaching the cream in the middle and then eating the cookie. Sometimes I will twist open the cookie and eat the cream first and then eat the cookies, which I agree with whoever says that Oreo should come out with the cookies without the cream because sometimes I just want the chocolate cookies and not the cream. It would also be helpful for those who are into baking too instead of taking out the cream manually or other desserts.

When I was a kid, whenever I would go over my grandmother's place I always had a specific spoon, fork and butter knife, I would use. I noticed they all had different designs/patterns on them so I chose my favorites. I notice I will choose a specific spot(s) to eat but when it comes to public places I tend to move around a lot because someone else is there and it can't be helped.

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I remember watching a video on YouTube about neurodivergent and neurotypical people having a conversation together sharing their similarities and differences. Someone explained that she feels like Ariel (Disney's The Little Mermaid) wanting to be a part of the world and feel a belonging and acceptance with others.

For me, I was rejected since the day I was born by some and growing up still rejected generally speaking. I never fitted in with the world because I'm not a part of this world. That's what I figured out as a kid once I became self-aware of that fact when I started contemplating why am I so different and why does so many reject me, even hate me and I've done nothing to them? The typical feeling like I don't belong here on earth; feeling like an foreigner. I still feel like that, yet I understand the deeper meaning. Back as a child I've decided to enjoy my own company, that I didn't care about chasing after love and acceptance for people who won't, for people who are pretenders, for people who are backstabbers and so on. So much pointless drama avoided in favor of self-acceptance, self-love, tranquility and sanity.

I still don't care to fit in because it goes completely against my true self. I would rather be alone and happy than miserable with people feigning honesty, loyalty, kindness, etc. When and if I come across someone who genuinely accepts me the way I am; a real, deep and meaningful bond will always be worthy.

I've seen enough of human nature talking about each other behind each other's backs but then act all nice like they are the best of buds when together. So bizarre.

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I remember reading someone's contemplation about why do we say we are celebrating our birthday when we are only born once instead of calling it our birth anniversary. I don't know, but I don't even keep track of my age anymore. Time doesn't really mean much to me. My time perception is basically one long continuous existence. I'm always surprised when I look at dates and I'm like, "That was 12 years ago or 5 years ago?" Time is strange to me.

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I was thinking earlier, I was more into The Sims 3/video games than life itself because life lost its color and is somewhat boring. I figure meaningful relationships is what I desire but doesn't exist for me anymore and my hobby/interest in video games helps to mentally stimulate and entertain me and brings forth my creativity. I'm going through the motions like a zombie. Some people are like, "Well, be grateful you got to wake up because not everyone did." And other people are like, "I keep waking up when I don't want to." Hmm...glass half full, glass half empty.

Why am I still here, just to suffer? No, I'm joking but it does remind me of the meme. Which I never did get around to playing Metal Gear Solid V: Phantom Pain. Maybe some day.

Back to TS3, it's not the end of the world, it is what it is, but losing everything, Sims/generations, saves/progress, compiled data that took me years to do...all gone. Poof! Maybe...probably. I can't help but think of not being able to continue my virtual people lives and stories. I was invested, it was one of my favorite hobbies. One of the few things I really enjoyed in this harsh, cruel world. *I'm intentionally being dramatic, though that is one of my traits...I sure do sometimes make a mountain out of a mole-hill. "It's not that bad." Smile, you're on Candid Camera.

There were also old pictures and videos I lost so I could hear my mother's voice, see her when she was here and enjoying life. All the videos of my cute little fur babies...gone. That brought me more smiles to remember the joy they gave me and I hoped I gave them the best life I could for them. The free roaming, the toys, the playing in water, taking them out in the snow and when that was too cold for them; I bought the snow indoors for them to play in. I loved watching them play in the rice box where they loved to dig and throw dry rice everywhere and I also had so much fun hiding treats everywhere and watching them use their nose to find it. Taking them outside on walks in the yard was fun too when it was the right temperature as they are prone to heat stroke very easily. Playing tag, running around chasing them, watching them swim...so much fun.

Just memories now, and being human well memories sometimes start to fade away. So having something tangible to go back to is/was nice. Not to mention all those years of saving my artwork and gradually seeing improvement and different styles.

But I learned that anything and everything, including loved ones, in this life is not meant to be held on to forever. It can all be there one moment and then vanish the next moment. It can be lost, stolen, destroyed or die. But as I've mentioned before, it's not the material possessions that matter. Though I did have sentimental value to some of it.

I'll never understand people who intentionally cause harm physically, mentally, emotionally and/or psychologically to others and feel proud of themselves and feel joy watching what they solely caused or took part in someone's misfortune.

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Despite everything, life's good even though I'm seeing more and more perversion in the human race. So much corruption. I wonder when people are possessed do they know it? I'm noticing they don't because they literally are not present during those times; thus have no recollection of what they said or did because their demon starts manifesting and takes over. So technically it wasn't them but they start merging with that entity or entities to the point they cannot separate whose who in terms of motivations/thoughts/etc. Weird. It's reminds me of Resident Evil 7 when Eveline is influencing Mia's behavior and thought patterns among others. Maybe it's like that with people except they have no idea how to distinguish what's even their own thoughts or Negaverse's influence over them. Probably. I keep coming across such persons. It's 7,000 plus 1. How is it there are 8+ billion people on this earth and how many are in the dark? See that's why you never underestimate the enemy(ies).

Once down the rabbit hole, there's no going back to being blind and/or deaf. You see the world for what it really is, not the illusion. Actually, I don't think I ever had a choice concerning life here, based on the decision I made from before sealed my fate. I guess that's why there are certain things that resonate with me in The Matrix movies. Certain people don't have a choice because we already made our choice.

Also I'm aware that I probably talk too much which gives the enemy(ies) something to go off of but honestly I would still get targeted regardless because of who I am. And it's just not an easy task forgoing my true nature of talking too much and yes oversharing. See I'm not the problem, the problem is those who want to take advantage to cause harm will do so regardless but also the more evil they do, the more they stack on to their record. The bigger they are; the harder they fall. Timing is everything. He knows where to hit, when to hit and how to hit to make the most impact. Nothing is secret. We all reap what we sow. Good or bad.

Today, I had an appointment. It lasted 30 minutes.

Received part of my project supplies, the tin banks in particular. 18 of the 40 came.

Discharged from hospital after right breast surgery and 2nd chemo. Doesn't feel so good.

Got the final renovation done and prepared a coin bank with contact paper and washi tape.

Ordered from DoorDash. (Felt like spoiling myself.)

Found out new dolls coming from a new line of indie doll makers. One involved an elephant woman and I said "I think we need to address the elephant in the room... Happy birthday, Ella..." (Terrible, but worthy of a dad joke.)